Wanted.

Yesterday was Boyfriend's birthday. We did the big celebrating on Saturday night. Scroll down if you want to read about that. =) Yesterday for his actual birthday, he decided he wanted to go to dinner at this little Italian place that's a couple minutes away. Family owned and operated, nothing big or fancy. The place usually kicks so much ass. They have pizza that puts most big chains to shame right along with pasta dishes and desserts that do the same. Or so they used to. Some issues happened though. The person who controlled the recipes and did a lot of the cooking had problems with a family member and it came to the cook leaving and starting his own restaurant about 45 minutes away. We went to that one when we went to that town to hang out with some friends of ours. We've gone there a few times actually, each time with our friends. It's always so good. One of the places where you get too much food and it's so delicious that you want to keep eating even after you're full just so all that goodness doesn't go to waste. Anyway, we didn't think that the one closer to Boyfriend's house would suck now just because one person is gone. We were wrong. They went from having fettuccine alfredo that was topped with hot, real grilled chicken. The Tyson's chicken in a pouch mystery chicken. The more the minutes passed and the food cooled, the worse it tasted. My pizza was pretty good. My only gripe was the sauce was actually really sweet tasting. I don't want to taste sugar in my pizza. I know there is sugar in some ingredients but I don't want to bite in and automatically taste a big sweetness. The food ended up making BF sick to his stomach a little while later. That place used to be awesome. The parking lot was always packed. Eat in their during dinner hours and it would be hard to get a good seat because all the good ones were going to be full. We ate during their dinner rush and the place got maybe half full as they got their busy rush. I'd noticed lately, it was much less packed all the time. Still busy enough but not like it used to always be. I put that to things being so expensive and people not having the money to go out and eat, even at reasonably priced places. I think now, after eating there again, the decrease in their business just might be something else, hehe. ;)

Boyfriend, myself, CL and his dad all went to go see Wanted last night.

I am going to be the first person I know to not say it was a completely badass movie. I think I might even be the first person I've heard say something other than, "OMG it was fucking awesome man!" Everyone I heard leaving the theater was full of praise. The few blogs that talked about it that I have read went on about how spectacular it was. That's fine, to each their own. I wasn't that impressed by the way. I went in thinking it was going to suck though and it didn't suck. So I was happy that it was better than I expected it to be. I just fail to see the "badassness" of the movie. I know, badassness isn't a word BUT I used it anyway. Deal. Mmkay. ;) Like I said, it didn't suck. My biggest issue with it was that all the parts that were supposed to be like "OMG I never saw that shit coming" were totally predictable. In my opinion. Kinda ruins it when you know it's coming ya know? I won't be specific because I don't want to spoil it for anyone who is going to go see it any time soon, lol. Even though I saw the ending coming, I still enjoyed that. I liked most of the shooting scenes. A lot of stuff in the movie is physically impossible to do and that's entertaining but only to a point with me. After so much of it I'm just thinking, "Geez really? Come on!" The other thing is the way they come up with their hits to kill is insanely stupid. I laughed at it as soon as it was explained in the movie. I think I was the only one but pfft, seriously? Lol. I did like some parts of the movie, aside from the gun shooting scenes. I wouldn't pay to see it another time. I wouldn't buy it on DVD. I would watch it again if someone else purchased it and put it on. =)

I really like my new color scheme and layout here. I had been wanting to re-vamp it a little bit anyway for the last few months. I just had a reason too now. You know what gets me? People who think they are sooo so clever that they are just above every one. More so when they really aren't that clever at all. It's amusing as hell in an ironic I'd still punch your face in because you're so stupid kind of way. =D

Happy Monday y'all!

Celebration recap.

Today is Boyfriend's birthday! He turned the big 23 today. =)

We celebrated last night. We went out to dinner and he only invited a few close friends. One of them had said they would be there but then didn't show up. He did text one of the other people there eventually to tell him that he was having dinner else where and wasn't coming. Good thing we didn't wait on him to order. My boyfriend had tried to call and text him as well but he wasn't lucky enough to get a reply. Anyway.

Everyone else met up at the bar/pool hall we were doing the rest of the celebrating at around 9. We got there early to insure getting a table without having to wait. We got my favorite table. He invited 15 people if you include me, 14 if you don't and only 2 of them weren't able to make it. Ironically, 20 or so people showed up because a certain someone informed 8 or 9 other people who know Boyfriend of what was going on and they got invited along. Luckily one of them was cool and they got another table instead of trying to get 20 something people to play on one. It was annoying as hell because all but one of the uninvited people were annoying as fucking hell. I wanted to kill them. Or at least round them up and lock them in the bathroom so I wouldn't have to listen to them. After about an hour and a half, they pretty much stayed over at the table next to us and didn't come back over to our group all that often. Boyfriend had a really great time. We go up there a lot so the staff knows us. They were making fun of him over the loud speaker plenty of times. He had plenty of people buying him drinks and all kinds of things. Boyfriend had a wonderful time. I can't type out all the funny and amusing things that happened because then I'd be here forever typing, lol. It was fun though.

We left around 1 am finally and then 7 of us decided to go to Denny's for some food. There were 4 others who had left to go to IHOP and we got invited to go with them but we couldn't leave when they left because two people who had driven had decided they were going to drink after all. It took a little while to figure out how the driving situation was going to go. One of them wasn't drunk, he'd just said that to try and stay longer and to not have to admit he didn't have the money to go anyway. The other one really was actually drunk. He was outside waiting in his car when we all came out. It took a few minutes to convince him he could go but had to let someone sober drive him and his car there. He did concede and off we went finally, lol.

It's 3:30 PM now and he's still passed out in bed. I think I realized the reason he doesn't get hangovers is because he likely sleeps them off. ;) Today he gets birthday cake and dinner.

La La La.

Unconscious Mutterings

1. Loneliness :: Darkness.

2. Traffic :: Slow.
3. Chaos :: Madness.
4. Burp :: Soda.
5. 500 :: Dollars for gas money!
6. Movie :: The Dark Knight.
7. Coma :: Horrible.
8. Bark :: Puppy.
9. Stare :: Eyes.
10. Angelina :: Wanted, Jolie's new movie that I want to go see. =)

randomness...feed your mind and your blog

Week of June29: Random Nosy Questions

1. What are your plans for today?
Dinner and hanging out with Boyfriend for his birthday today.

2. Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
My mom. She had a question about a car part for her old Explorer.

3. What was the last tv program you watched?
I don't even remember. I hardly watch TV at all. The last time I watched was on Wednesday I think.

4. What was the last thing you ate?
A turkey sandwich with ranch dressing.

5. What time did you get out of bed today?
12:30 PM. We went out celebrating last night for my boyfriend's birthday. I didn't go to bed until 5:30 AM. Lol.

Hello.

You may have noticed that things look a little different around here. No funky error chewed up my blog and spit it back out empty. I have cleared it up so to speak. I will work on it the next couple days to get it all snazzy looking again. All the posts are gone. Most of them are going to stay that way too.

I am no longer going to be playing HNT any longer. Maybe I will but it won't be the things people are used to seeing. If I keep playing HNT, they will be tame pictures. Y'all will be quite sick of seeing my eyes, lips, face, shoulders and neck if I do keep playing.

There's been some issues going on recently in my real life that have made me decide to quit playing. It has absolutely nothing to do with my boyfriend. He's been cool about it all this time and he rocks for that. The issues with it lie in a couple of other places. I feel violated horribly of my privacy and violated of things that delve far deeper than simple privacy issues. It is nothing any of you did though. It has very little to do with anything online at all. Don't think I'm letting some creep on the internet get the best of me. I'm stronger than that. Please don't apologize at all for anything because none of you are responsible. The one who is knows it already. I won't post about it in any more detail. It's very personal and I'd prefer not to air it to any and everyone reading this. No offense. I feel violated and honestly pretty angry about the whole ordeal. Along with several other emotions. *Sigh*

The posting is going to stay the same though for the most part. I contemplated just deleting my blog but my problem there is I love to write. I love my blog and the outlet it gives me to ramble on and on about things.

So moving on to something happier. Anyone who reads here at all knows that I'm bisexual. Something that has bothered me for years was wanting to be open about that with my family. I felt I was unable to because I didn't quite know how my family would react. I didn't want them treating me differently just because I like guys and girls. So late Thursday night/early Friday morning, my boyfriend and I were still at my mom's house. We were talking about some issues and the subject of sex came up. I just finally looked at my mom and said, "So you know I'm bisexual, right?" She didn't miss a beat with her reply. She wasn't sure but she had suspected it since I was 18/19. Now she knows. My youngest brother knows. My sister knows. They thought it anyway. I just confirmed it. My sister also confirmed that she knows I think Christina Ricci is hot. Which, in case you don't quite see it, means that those three family members are all fine with it. We talked about it for maybe ten minutes. Being mostly my mom and them telling me nothing changed, I'm still me, who cares if I like girls too? I was so beyond relieved. It felt so fucking good to finally just get it out there and say it. Even if they freaked out, I felt relieved after saying it. My boyfriend was just pretty stunned that I just said it so bluntly and easily because he knows that I've worried over how they would react about it for so long. I worried for nothing. I would be disappointed if it bothered them. To me, it's just a part of who I am. For them to not accept it or to treat me differently because of it would hurt. It would feel like they weren't accepting a part of me. It seems I don't have to worry though and it makes me happy. So very relieved as well. I'm grinning as I type this. I know a lot of people don't understand why it's a big deal. Mostly, it isn't a big deal at all. It's only a "big deal" on a very personal, emotional level I think. I'm happy and won't worry about it anymore though. =D

Jeannie Grrl.

I know this was posted before I decided to clear my blog and start anew. I wasn't going to lose this post just because of that bullshit though. There will be a few others I re-post as well because they were great posts and I still want them displayed.



A lot of you might recognize this lovely lady making an appearance to the left of your screen. For those of you who don't, this is the lovely JeannieGrrl. If you read her blog, you know some things about her. She's a fighter. She's a survivor. She's an encouraging, beautiful woman. She's tough. She's been through so very much, more heartache and negativity then most people need to go through. She prevails over it all. Some days, she is blue and down on her. She always looks for a light in something. She isn't one to sit around and pity herself for the things that are wrong, the bad things, anything at all. She may whine a bit, bitch, vent and moan as well, but who doesn't? She doesn't wallow in misery and she always finds a way to overcome things. If not, she keeps on keeping on, pushing and pulling, looking for ways she can do better. It's her strength, perseverance, spirit, kindness and caring nature that make me admire this woman so dearly, despite never having ever met her before. I admire her for several things she has overcome and other things that she continues to fight.

She's always got kind, encouraging words for me when I find myself in doubt and needing to hear them. She doesn't pour on the sugar and lie her ass off to make me or anyone else feel better. She eloquently puts it in a truthful, blunt manor. I can appreciate that. She cusses like a sailor sometimes in her posts. She has a passion about her that shows through clearly in a lot of her posts. It's very clear that if you mess with her or anyone she cares about, that you're in for it and in for it in a big way. She isn't the biggest but you would be totally silly to underestimate her. Passionate, fiery and fierce concerning those closest to her.

She's a mother and a good one at that. She's fun and young at heart. All you have to do is look at her blog and find out about her love of Hello Kitty, read her sillier posts and look at the goofy pictures she posts of herself to see that she's not all business and serious at all times. She writes about her life in all forms. It isn't always fun to read but it's real. Sometimes, it's heartbreaking to read some of the things she's gone through in the passed. Other times, she's angry about something and ranting and raving. Other times, it's mundane things that wouldn't be an interest to anyone who didn't care about her. Her blog is a collection of her interests, her daily life, her passed, stories, things about her religion, poetry and so many different things. It's all her though and everything is real and truth. She puts so much of herself out there to be seen and read. You still know that she has so many secrets she still keeps to herself though.

Favorite posts of hers? Right now she's in the middle of rebuilding her website because of a massive server failure so you won't find too much post wise right now. Some posts you should check out are these.

"Exactly Me", "She Cries", "Haunted" .

Maybe I'm just biased though because I've gotten to know her a bit and I think she's a lot of things. Interesting, passionate, beautiful, giving, strong, loving, kind, sensual, fierce, soft, honest, spunky, loyal, a force to be reckoned with, real and a thousand other words that could be used to describe her. Like I said, I've never met this woman in person before but I absolutely adore and admire her to pieces. Which is why I picked her to be my first choice for the "Blogger of the Month" thing. I couldn't think of anyone at all that was a better choice for me to do first. She was one of the first blogs I started reading when I came back to blogger after a break for a year and I've stuck with her since then. All in all, if you've never read this chick's blog, you're missing out on the chance to get to know a pretty fucking wicked lady.

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