It's my birthday! And stuff...

Happy Birthday to me!

I turn 27 today. This week, I've had SO MANY PEOPLE ask me if I'm getting anxious or sad about getting closer to 30 and if I feel old, stuff like that. My answer is no. I've never worried about age or getting old and likely never will. That's how life is. You have a birthday, 365 days go by, you have another and boom you're another year older. That's not something that will change for as long as you're alive so what's the point in worrying or stressing about it? And honestly, 30 is hardly old. Far from it in my opinion.


For my actual birthday, I won't be doing much. I'm going to bake myself some apple muffins and cook myself whatever the hell I feel like for dinner. Then see if I can get my boyfriend to clean up the kitchen and do the dishes for me, since it's my birthday and all. Then I'll watch sports or a movie or do something relaxing at home for a little bit whilst spending time with the boyfriend. I need to go to bed fairly early though and I want to get more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep because Saturday is going to be long and busy.


I have to be up early Saturday so I can bake some stuff for several costumers and then I'll be going to my youngest brother's hockey game that's at 11 AM. Then there will be various running around doing things. Then I'm having a birthday dinner that night evening since the people I'm having dinner with would not have been in town on Friday. Well, most of them would not have been anyway. Then after my birthday dinner, I'll be going out with my boyfriend and a group of my friends to consume some alcoholic beverages and get into shenanigans. 

My mom posted this on my Facebook and I wanted to share it on here for some reason, so...:

"Twenty-seven years ago, at 3:40 am I was blessed with the FIRST of 4 amazing and beautiful free spirited children. You are often imitated but never duplicated. Through 27 years we have often had out share of issues, you being bull headed and stubborn....set on your path, forging ahead. Me being concerned and not really knowing how to handle you....but trying anyway.

It has been a journey, watching you grow and mature, watching you and Shane become a couple and move forward. TODAY I CELEBRATE YOU and all that you are, all that you were and all that you will become."

Suck it, Hallmark. Also, that's possibly the most truthful and accurate thing my mom has ever said to me without being overly mushy. 

Last year was super challenging but mostly good. This year has been rough so far but I'm always looking forward and trying to keep my generally positive realistic outlook about things. I've learned that there will never be a day that I have it all figured out and I'm pretty much okay with that. 

Happy Friday!

And Happy Birthday to any other June 15th babies out there. :D

My birthday post might be a bit of a downer but...

Today is my birthday. I'm now 26 yet still get mistaken for being 18-22. Usually under 21. We went out Monday night to watch Game 6 of the Stanley Cup Playoffs and out of the table, I was the only one asked for an ID when ordering a drink. Yet I'm older than all but one of those people, lol. And it's not that the waitress knew them better or that they go there more. I just look young. Which I'm sure I'll be thankful for once I'm quite a few more years older. ;)

I'm having a hard time being excited about it, really. I usually love birthdays, always have. My grandpa died Thursday. His viewing and service was Saturday. He's being cremated today. It's just hard to be happy and excited for much right now, I miss him. And it's my first birthday I won't get a birthday card from him and my grandma. There was always just one, signed together.

I am proud of myself, though. I've kept true to what I said I would do. I've cried whenever I felt sad. I've laughed and shared good memories when I felt like doing so. I haven't been letting myself lay in bed and sleep more than I would because that always just makes me feel worse. I haven't been angry with myself and gone over every single time I could have visited or called when I didn't. I realize that no matter how much time I spent, in the end, it will always seem like it wasn't enough. I haven't and will continue to not dwell on that because doing so would be useless. He knew how much he meant to me and how much I loved him. I made sure I told him as much every time I saw him the last couple years as his health increasingly continued to worsen and worsen.

So later, after the service they're having this morning before he's cremated (something to do with his military background I believe, yay veterans respecting their deceased fellows) I think I'll try to do something fun tonight. The boyfriend has work and I'm not sure my family will be up for anything but that's what friends are for. Being a Wednesday it might be tough but I'm at least going to find a little something fun to do. I think he'd like me top carry on and do something pleasant, even if I am sad and missing him horribly.

Happy Wednesday y'all.

Guess what I got? :)

I got a package in the mail yesterday. My younger sister had ordered me a gift in plenty of time to get it and send it to me by my birthday June 15th. After she ordered it, it went on backorder so we had to wait. It finally came in and I got it yesterday. I've been waiting and waiting to see what my sister got for me that was so hard to get a hold of.


Awesome, eh? ;)



Any guess about what it is?







A drawstring bag and a bunch of boxes!



You win if you guessed that.



Ready to see what's in the boxes?



I know you are.....



Ok ok...........






HA!




Ok, for real this time........












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If you guessed the boxes contained a flask and set of six shot glasses, you were right. Come one, no one guessed that! If you did magically guess that, you definitely didn't guess that it was a Boondock Saints flask and shot glass set. ;)

The first time I saw the movie was in 2003. I was hanging out with one of my guy friends at his apartment and we had been playing video games and drinking for a few hours. And yeah, for those who know how old I am, I was totally partaking in some illegal underage drinking. Totally not the worst thing I was doing at the time but I digress. Back on track here. We gave up on the video games after a few hours of me kicking his ass at whatever game we were playing and decided we'd watch a movie. He pulled out The Boondock Saints and asked if I had seen it. I said I hadn't and he said I had to watch it because it was one of his favorite movies. I loved it. I also love Willem Dafoe. :D And even now that it's more popular, especially due to a second one FINALLY coming out recently, I still love it. So, I was quite happy with my sister's present and totally surprised by it.

Moving on, one more thing I want to share not related to my gift from my awesome younger sister....

Fangs decided he wanted to do my hair for me. I admit, it looked crappy. I've needed a haircut really badly but haven't been able to afford one. I normally cut my own hair but my step-cousin's wife did my hair last year in several layers and my hair was still in layers. Just many inches longer than when she cut it. I didn't want to mess up the layers so I just left my hair alone. It's been so hot due to the whole summer thing my mass of super long and heavy hair has been killing me. So, Fangs did my hair for me. He cut 5 inches off the longest layer and said longest layer is now only 1.5 inches below my shoulders now. It feels so good to not have so much hair weighing me down. He also colored it for me, too. He said some stuff left over from when he last did his hair. He had purchased several different colors because he had been indecisive on what to get for himself. So he had a couple colors for me to pick from for him to do my hair. And it wasn't box stuff, he doesn't roll that way. So, I got a great hair cut and a pretty new color and my hair looks so nice again. My step-cousin's wife had done it lighter and then done two different tones of high lights in it but since my hair's grown, my natural color was there then flowed into the color/highlights and yeah... wasn't looking good. It's all good now, though. And I didn't have to pay for it but I did cook dinner for him as a thank you. Pictures of the color coming some time next week. Or maybe on Sunday. I'd say tomorrow but I already have a post scheduled. ;)

Happy Thursday!

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How I celebrated my birthday...

Friday night I got to go out and celebrate my birthday (actual birthday was on Tuesday) with a small group of friends and my boyfriend.

Earlier in the day, I had a job interview.

After the interview, the boyfriend took me to TGI Fridays for dinner. He wanted to take me to The Cheesecake Factory but I opted for Fridays instead. Not that I don't love The CF because oh my gosh... if I could afford it, I'd splurge and eat there once a week. I've been wanting Fridays for weeks, though. We don't usually have money to eat out so I took my opportunity to go to the place I've been wanting to go to for weeks. I don't eat a lot of stuff from there ironically but they have this burger that I fucking love so... Craving satisfied. :D

After that, we roamed around Barnes & Noble for a while. I had a $15 gift card to use that one of my friends had given me Tuesday for my birthday. I ended up not using it and then we went home so we could get ready for the night ahead.

We got ready to go out. We went and picked up one of my friends, Short Girl. We went to the beer store so SG could get some beverages for herself. She got Mike's Hard Pomegranate Punch and Smirnoff Lemonade and also a 12 pack of Coors Light for CL. (Since I haven't talked about my friends in a long time, CL and SG are now dating and have been for a couple months now thus ending their 3 years of flirting and crushing. Awww.) Then we went to pick up CL and his Uno cards. Then it was back to the house because I forgot to grab the bottle of rum out of the closet that I was given for this night. Then Graphics Guy and his new girlfriend, whom we'll call Drinksky, met up with us. Foghat was supposed to come with but he ended up bailing. No big deal, I pretty much expected him to do that since it's what he does a lot lately. Once we had everyone and everything together, we went off to Main Event.

At Main Event, there were drinks. SG bought me my first drink. Then some air hockey going on. I rocked that shit. I did lose one game to the boyfriend. I won the rest, I believe. Then there was more drinking. Drinksky got my next drink. Then some more games. Then some Jell-O shots that were terrible that we decided to do before we left. Then we got hit on by one of the cops that was patrolling in there that night as we stood in the bar area waiting on the guys. Cop was kind of creepy. We went off to get back to the guys so we could leave.

We left. We went to Kroger's so GG and Drinksky could buy some beer. We then hit up a Wendy's for the dollar menu because Drinksky informed us she had not eaten all day and CL and SG were also hungry.

After that, we went to one of our friend's apartment. We'll call him SC. Sheesh, I seriously need to update my cast list, apparently. :D Anyway. We got there, got all the booze upstairs. His girlfriend was already asleep but thankfully she's a sound sleeper. We got all the booze situated in the refrigerator and then Inglourious Basterds went into the DVD player while we got to drinking. We chatted for about half an hour. SC and the Boyfriend went into the extra room in the apartment to check out some computer stuff. I grabbed CL's Uno cards and we played Uno. And drank. And talked. And laughed. And stopped once in a while to watch a bloody scene in the movie before getting back to the Uno play. After more drinking, CL tossed a bottle cap down SG's shirt and she smacked him and told him to get it out. He laughed and told me to get it out. I said I'd pass. I'm not attracted to SG and she's not interested in females in the slightest bit. Drinksky then piped up and "accidentally" dropped a bottle cap down her shirt and asked me to fish it out, with my mouth. Which lead to a discussion, drunkenly, over Uno, about sexuality. Totally interesting but the fact that it was interesting was about all I remember about it, lol.

Playing Uno turned into us sitting there drinking more than playing and not keeping up with who was supposed to be playing one. I got the brilliant idea that we should go for a walk and find one of the pools in SC's apartment complex. He had mentioned earlier we should have brought stuff to swim in so we could go swimming.

Now mind you, this was at... hell I don't even remember what time it was. Some time after 2 AM. I think it was around 3 AM. Anyway, I had the idea that we needed to go on an adventure and find the pool. SC mentioned that they closed it at midnight but didn't lock it. I wanted to go swimming. SG pointed out that we didn't have stuff to change into. I slurred on about how I didn't need no stinking swimsuit. Drinksky was all for it as was CL. GG went along with it and SG decided she'd at least come along for the walk. SC and Boyfriend told us to hold on and they would walk down with us. We left without them, lol. They ended up getting to the pool at the same time we did. Since SC knew where it was and my group was on the adventure of walking around until we found it.

We went in and Drinksky and I headed for the jacuzzi. It was on and bubbling. The water was too damn hot especially since it was still in the high 80's to low 90's outside. (Thanks, Texas summer! ;)) So, we tested the pool water and it felt awesome. The "deep end" was actually in the middle of the pool and was a whopping 4 feet deep, lol. None of us were hammered and the Boyfriend was the sober driver (because we ALWAYS have one) and SC doesn't even drink alcohol.

I took of my socks, shoes, jewelry, put my cell in my shoes, took of my jeans and into the pool I went. Then, I remembered it would be a good idea to take my t-shirt off too, haha. So I took that off and tossed it to the side. My boyfriend laid it on the chair making sure to keep the wet shirt away from my dry jeans and shoes. That left me in my underwear, bra and a tank top that I had on under my t-shirt. Drinksky's drunk ass jumped in fully clothed and then remembered to take her pants off. We swam around a few minutes, trying to get SG to jump in. She doesn't do stuff like that normally at all. So, I left her alone about it and swam around with Drinksky. SG ended up jumping in fully clothed. CL pointed out that she was the only one with pants on in the pool and suggested she take them off. She didn't and only stayed in the pool for a few minutes because she was freaked out about getting caught. CL and GG ended up stripping down to their boxers and getting in the pool with Drinksky and I. They didn't stay in the pool for more than a few minutes either. Drinksky and I swam around and talked while everyone else sat on the lounge chairs talking. SC left to go grab a bunch of towels and then came back down. Some random people came into the pool area asking if we had seen their drunk friend who had some how gotten lost wandering around the apartment complex. We had seen someone wandering around on the other side so they took off to try and find their friend. (They did and it was the person we had seen wandering around.) Drinksky and I ended up talking about boobs (nothing abnormal there ;)) and some how she ended up fondling mine in the pool. Then we wanted some more drinks so we got out and wrapped up in the towels.

On the walk back to his apartment, SC joked that he hoped his girlfriend didn't wake up because he didn't want to have to explain why there were 3 drunk half naked girls wrapped in towels hanging out in the living room. She's cool as hell, though, so he would have explained and it would have been fine. He let us put our wet stuff in the dryer. I had an extra shirt (from my interview earlier in the day) in the trunk of my boyfriend's car. So I tossed my underwear into the trunk, put on my dry jeans and the shirt from interview and went back upstairs.

I got back up to the apartment and Drinksky was opening a beer in the kitchen. I poured another rum and coke and we both took a shot of rum while we were at it. SG had taken off her belt and laid it on the kitchen counter. Drinksky grabbed it and informed me it was time for my birthday spankings. GG, who was sitting in the living room with the boyfriend, CL and SC pointed out that it was birthday spanking time in a cheerful manner. I laughed and let Drinksky administer the birthday spankings. She was drunk, her aim sucked, she lost count, I have no clue how many I actually got but I know she got a few good hits in so it's all good.

After that, there was more talking and a lot of laughing while we waited for the stuff to dry. Around 5 AM or maybe 5:30 AM we ended up getting everything together and leaving SC's apartment to make the drive back home. He lives around 40 minutes away from where we all live. People passed out in the car on the drive back. I stayed awake because I wasn't sleepy. Just drunk and happy.

I haven't gone out much at all lately because I can't afford to. I do have friends that offer but I don't take them up on those offers very often because I refuse to let them pay for me to go out. When I can afford to, I go. If they're insistent, I might go. Usually, I say thank you and decline unless they want me to come to their house and hang out. I'm not going to let other people pay my way just so I can get out of the house. It's boring as shit sitting at home all the time but I don't feel right letting other people pay for me too often. My birthday however, that's totally fine. No one should ever pay for their own birthday celebration. ;)

It wasn't any super wild and crazy night. It was a lot of fun, though. The most fun I've had in a long time and definitely one of the best birthday's I've ever celebrated. It was a little odd not seeing my family for my birthday, to be honest. This was the first one that I was away from them for. I haven't seen them in almost a year, though. Maybe next year I'll be able to see them for my birthday. Or you know, maybe I can see them for Christmas this year. It was odd spending Christmas with my boyfriend and his family. They do things so much more differently than my family does but I digress.

I was going to post this yesterday but I ended up spending most of the day on the phone talking to my grandparents, a few friends and my dad. Cooking dinner. Hanging out with the Boyfriend and his mama. Listening to music and reading. Lounging outside on the back of my boyfriend's car looking at the stars. You know, nothing too productive but more relaxing than looking at a computer screen. ;)

Happy Monday!

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Happy Birthday to me...

Happy Birthday to me! I'm a quarter of a century old today. It sounds old when you say it that way, lol. 25 isn't old, not in my opinion anyway.

My boyfriend's got jury duty all day and then work until midnight or later. This is my first birthday away from my parents and siblings so that's kind of odd but it's fine. :)

Panda Dementia is taking me bowling some time today, though. She didn't so much ask as tell me she was going to take me out to do something for my birthday. Not that I was going to argue about getting out of the house for something other than a job interview, lol.

Speaking of..... I have a job interview today, lol. Yep, another one. I don't know how many I've been on lately, I've lost count. Hopefully soon I can post about going to work instead of going on my hundredth interview. *fingers crossed*

I thought it would be fun to post a baby picture of myself to go with my birthday post. Then I realized I don't have any baby pictures of myself. I didn't think of this until a little while ago so it's a bit too late to e-mail my mom about sending me something to use, lol. Maybe I'll post a baby Ashly picture sometime soon. :)

I found one but it's tiny and not very good, lol. It'll do for this post however. ;)

Happy Tuesday!!!!!!

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Fucking fuckery...

My birthday is tomorrow. My boyfriend's off on Friday nights so he says he'll take me out to dinner then to celebrate. I don't mind waiting a few days. I told him it wasn't a big deal and not to worry about it but he and my friends disagreed and said we could do something Friday night.

That picture over there on the left? That was taken at maybe 2 AM? I felt tired and looked tired but I also felt hyper and kind of spazzy. The black strings aren't strings or a necklaces. Those be the cords to my iPod headphones. I think I was jamming some Avantasia or Nightwish. Something of that nature.

I posted a lot of stuff on my Tumblr last night while I was bored and waiting for my laundry to get done. I love that website. 

Tonight is GAME 6 in the Calder Cup Finals. If my Texas Stars lose, that's it. Hershey will win and be the Calder Cup Champions. I don't want that so... Go Stars! After the Calder is over, no more hockey until Fall. 

At least I still have baseball. I just don't love that as much as I love hockey.

I have a job interview today. It's a 2nd interview with a place I interviewed last week. I'm so tired of interviews and 2nd interviews and still not having a job. So frustrating. Plus, I'm broke and I'm getting to a point where I won't be able to afford to keep going all over the place for interviews. Something please work out soon, thanks. 

The bedroom smells like popcorn right now. I don't care much for popcorn. We don't even have any in the house, anyway. It's been months since someone last made popcorn. *shrug*

That's all the rambling for today. Anyone do anything fun or interesting this weekend? I hope y'all have a great day today. 

Happy Monday!

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Picture show! & other stuff...

My birthday is in 4 more days. :) Hooray for turning 25 and insurance rates lowering a few bucks. Lol.

I was on Twitter and decided there were a couple people I wanted to go unfollow because they just cause a bunch of drama and start petty bullshit. I enjoy their blog posts but following them on Twitter? Not so much. So I got started and ended up finding more people to unfollow. I had 5 in mind and ended up unfollowing 83 people, lol. I doubt most of them will notice and I don't particularly care one way or another. I'm just happy to clean my timeline up a little bit. :)

My hair has gotten so long! I usually keep it shoulder length or a bit shorter. It's several inches below my shoulders now. I like it but with this heat and the lack of air conditioning, it's driving me crazy and I'm thinking I'll take a pair of scissors to it sooner or later. Probably sooner. Just to trim a few inches off of it. Even though I trimmed a couple inches off just a couple weeks ago. This picture is after I trimmed it up. Click it to big it.



I was waiting for my job interview to start on Wednesday and noticed this sign hanging.



I just giggled and had to snap a picture of it and share. I love things that are suggestive without being necessarily dirty. I posted it to my Twitter account and was amused by how amused some people were by it. The sign was hanging above to hallway that leads back to the restrooms. Which amused me more.

Now to share some stuff I posted on my Tumblr, because there are some awesome pictures on there but not many people check it out. :) I didn't take these pictures. I just find them and post them. Unless I say otherwise, it's not my photography on there. Just stuff I like or like the looks of. ;)

Ducks are one of my favorite animals. This Mandarin duck is SO FUCKING PRETTY.




This one is from a beach in California. I love the beach and the ocean. I found this picture particularly striking but I'm not sure why.



Next? The Chicago Blackhawks beat the Philadelphia Flyers Wednesday night to win the Stanley Cup. They're the champions this year so congratulations to them. This picture? Some celebrating going on with Toews and Kane.



And since I posted some hockey players, I'll finish the picture show with a picture of the design of a t-shirt I so want. I hope this store still has these for a long time because once I am working again and have the money to spend, I want to buy this shirt.



There are some awesome hockey related shirts on this website. I posted more of the designs I really liked on my Tumblr. Actually, I want so many of them but that one? One of my favorites. LOL xD

Happy Friday!

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Look at her butt, it is so big...

Happy Birthday to... me! I'm 24 today. Happy Birthday to my co-worker, Mr. Sarcasm too and happy birthday to anyone else who has a birthday today as well. ;)

I have to work today but I go in for a day shift as opposed to a night shift. I have the night free so I can do stuff with my boyfriend and family. Stuff I posted briefly about yesterday. Woohoo. And no, no birthday sexy time will be had tonight since Mother Nature decided it was time to grace me with my monthly tide last night. The first two days of my period, I get the worst cramps, my stomach really feels like it has something trying to claw (with very sharp objects) it's way out of my tummy. Not so fun but ah well, that's life. ;)

I'm typing this out before I go to bed because I don't want to fool with writing something before work in the morning. I'm also watching The Dark Knight for the 30th or so time. ;) <3>

Something I totally want to bitch about before I end this post though... I hate when you have a co-worker who acts all high and mighty about their job. Acting like they do some great service and should be worshipped for what they do like they aren't getting paid and aren't getting anything out of doing what they do. It annoys the hell out of me. I just want to slap some people some times. Hello, it's a job and we're serving food and drinks here in my line of work. Not ending world hunger, giving world peace, finding a cure for cancer or even doing any bit of good to anyone really. There's no need to act like you're doing something like that and go on about how good you are, how much better at your job than you are over everyone else, how you deserve this that and the other thing because you do this that and this. Blah blah blah. Shut up and just do your job already. And most of the times, the ones who boast and whine the most really aren't very productive employees and shouldn't be running their mouths anyway. Just sayin'. I'm done now.

Happy Monday!

Oh my wow, a post on Sunday!

So I woke up today and was lounging around in bed, just stretching and waking up. I grabbed my phone and was playing around on it. Then I realized, fuck, it's almost my birthday. Seriously, my birthday is tomorrow. Where the hell did the weekend go? I still was thinking my birthday was several days away but yeah, definitely not. My sense of time is a little fucked lately. The days are going by too quickly because I'm so wrapped up inside everything going on in my head and trying to make some sense of things that I'm letting the days fly by. I need to step outside my head a little more. Those issues will get resolved eventually so no need to go missing out on things because I'm too busy camping in my brain, right? Right.

So for my birthday plans tomorrow. I miss Dallas, horribly. There are tons of things to do there, even on a Monday night. The area I'm staying in right now? There isn't much to do on weekends let alone on a Monday night. So, I'm going to dinner with family and my boyfriend. Then we're going to go bowling I think since that's an activity we can all find fun and amusement in. Even though I suck unless I'm tipsy or drunk. I'm not a good sober bowler. After that, just back to the house and maybe watching a movie I love or something. The 3 bars in the town I live in aren't open during the week and if they are, you wouldn't be able to tell from the looks of things. So for the first time in a LOT of years, I'm going to have an easy going birthday and not party. Though not by choice so no accusing me of getting older and more responsible and crazy shit like that. ;)

Now I need to stop all this typing and get ready to go to work. Woohoo. Then I have to work at 11 AM tomorrow. Bleh. I asked for a day time shift though as opposed to my regular night shift, so I could have the night off to enjoy my birthday.