Showing posts with label Boyfriend. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Boyfriend. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

I Don't Care What He Would Prefer I Do With My Hair

I keep my hair cut short during Spring and Summer. Texas gets HOT and having a lot of hair when it's so hot out makes me feel miserable. So, I cut most of my hair off until what's left is resting around my earlobes. Nothing feels better than that first day where I walk out into the warm sunshine and feel so much lighter and more free because I've lost five or more inches of hair.

I also have a tendency to change my hair color multiple times a year. I favor bright colors but my job doesn't allow any fun hair colors so the most I can get away with are shades of red. Which is fine because I love having red hair. I also play around with hair chalk on weekends to add more funky colors to my hair since hair chalk washes right out.

Two questions I get most often about my hair have nothing to do with the great work my stylist does or the funky hair chalks I like to add in to my colored hair.

The two I get the most are the same question inquiring about separate things and for the most part, these questions come from other women.

"What does your boyfriend think of your hair being that color?'

"Is your boyfriend a short hair man?"/"What does your boyfriend think of your hair being that short?"

This annoys me because what my boyfriend thinks of my hair doesn't factor in to what I do to my hair. It's MY hair and he has no claim over my hair and what I do with it.

My hair color changing he's fine. He often shows me pictures of beautiful, brightly colored hair to give me ideas for things I can do for hair chalk or for when I work in a place that doesn't have such a strict dress code.

My boyfriend likes long hair. He gets a little sad when I go to cut off my long wavy locks at the start of the hot hot heat. He never tries to talk me out of it or never tries to pretend he has any say over what I do with my hair though because he understands his preference for my hair isn't relevant.

It's not that I don't appreciate his opinion on things because I do. I talk things over with him all the time and regularly bounce ideas off of him because I value his opinion and enjoy getting his perspective on things. How I dress, what eye makeup I wear, what I do with my hair and superficial aesthetic things like those have no real impact on our relationship. It's not like I cut my hair to spite him. How I look is up to me and I do what I'm comfortable with and I do what makes me happy.

What typically follows these questions is, "well if he prefers long hair, why would you cut it short?"

Again, IT'S MY HAIR AND I WANTED IT SHORT TO BE MORE COMFORTABLE AND BECAUSE IT'S CUTE SO I CUT IT SHORT. I don't need anyone's approval to do something to my appearance.

I've never understood the notion that if the person I'm in a relationship doesn't like a certain aesthetic then it means I shouldn't do it anymore. Thankfully, I'm with a person that doesn't try to dictate or pressure me into looking a certain way. He might not like the short hair or the lime green eyeliner but he doesn't try to discourage me from doing things that I enjoy because they're not his preference. He doesn't pressure me or shame me. He understands that I'm the one in control of my body and in control of what I do with it. As long as I'm not hurting myself, he doesn't care as long as I'm happy.

Now if only other people would be as awesome as my boyfriend and stop asking me (and I'm sure asking other people) why I do things to my appearance for myself without considering what he would prefer, that would be rad.

Friday, June 29, 2012

Happy Birthday & a 3.5 million dollar Flintstone's inspired house...

Before I get to the actual post, today is my awesome boyfriend's 27th birthday! Yes, his birthday is exactly 2 weeks after mine. Which also makes him the first guy I've dated that's been younger than me, even if it is only by 14 days. He jokes that dating older guys is clearly where I had been going wrong. Though really, he's always been pretty mature for his age and people always think I'm younger anyway, haha. I'm making him an awesome dinner and one of his favorite cakes for his birthday cake. Then he'll be in bed by 10 PM since he gets up for work at 4 AM Tuesday through Saturday. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the one person who knows what a weird mess I am and loves me anyway because he's just as weird. <3 

Now, on to the Flintstone's house!

A friend of mine that works in design sent me a picture of a Flintstone's inspired house yesterday. It looked awesome but she found the image on Tumblr so I decided to use Google to see if I could track down such a unique house.

Turns out, that was the easiest search ever. The first link Google showed was of the house in question. It also happened to have plenty of photos and explained that the house belongs to the late Dick Clark. 






















I loved watching The Flintstone's cartoon as a little kid so of course I find this house to be completely badass. Plus, who else has anything like that? It's definitely unique. And for the cool price of 3.5 million dollars, that charming little house could be all yours!


Now if I could win a whole lot of money, I could make a Batman inspired house that would knock this Flintstone's house down a few pegs on the coolness meter. ;)


Happy Friday!

Friday, May 25, 2012

Six years ago today: the anniversary post...

Six years ago today, my boyfriend and I finally got together. We had known each other for thirteen months prior but when we first met, it wasn't a dating type thing. We found out we had a ridiculous amount of things in common and he found my weird sense of humor great because he's a little odd, too. Then a month or so after I first met him, I ended up moving to California. We kept in contact hoping to remain friends. We'd talk once in a while to see how the other was doing. Eventually, we were talking every day and sending each other gifts for birthdays, Christmas and even Valentine's Day. Then, I wanted to move back home to Texas because I wasn't happy living out on the West Coast and missed my home state. Plus there were other circumstances at play and I couldn't wait to leave the town I was in and never look back. After about a year in California, I did. I spent my first night back with Shane and we've been together ever since then.

We've had some really rough times. One of my closest friends committed suicide and that was hard to get through. He stuck with me while I battled through substance abuse issues. I was an absolute wreck after being targeted in an armed robbery, which some of you will recall if you've known me long enough. We've both gone through several jobs and a couple periods of unemployment. We've both dealt with deaths of people we cared for. My health issues are a constant annoyance. His health issues which have been scary as fuck at times. I've been with him for two of the strokes he's had and that's definitely something I hope I won't have to see happen again not to mention the cancer he's working on ridding himself of currently.


We've gone through a lot together over the last six years and that's only a little of it. The bad stuff we've gone through and helped each other get through has only made us both stronger, as individuals and as a couple.


There has been plenty of awesome stuff, too. I'm happy I have someone who loves hockey as much as I do because he doesn't mind when I want to spend a lot of my free time and extra cash going to hockey games during the Winter and Spring. He doesn't whine when I want to go see a loud metal show because usually he likes the band, too. He also doesn't mind if I want to go play racquetball ball or golf with a friend and leave him at home. We can do plenty of stuff together but still do things without the other which is awesome because I like my space, lol. 



He still brings me home little gifts randomly which always makes me smile. Who doesn't love a small gift for no reason? Sometimes it's just some Reese's peanut butter cups, a cute little stuffed animal, a rubber duck (because I collect them, ok,) something from Bath & Body Works or some weird little random thing that he saw and thought would brighten my day. It's great to know he still thinks of things like that and pays attention to the little things. Like spending an afternoon at the marina because I want to feed the ducks and hang out at the lake. Or spending hours walking around behind me at an art museum and letting me tell him about the artists I love.

Shane's one of the kindest, most caring, genuinely nice, sweet guys I've ever known. At times I think he's too nice but I guess as long as no one's taking advantage of him, it's really not a bad thing.  He's incredibly encouraging and supportive of any and everything I want to do, as long as it's not something too dangerous anyway. Then he's less supportive and more trying to drag my feet back down to the ground before I impulsively do something silly. He makes me laugh more than anyone else I know and he gets me in a way most people don't. For all of that and more, I'm happy I have the big guy in my life. I really can't even believe we've been together for six years now. It doesn't seem like it has been that long at all.


He works today so we won't be doing much in terms of celebrating. Just going to dinner once he's off work and not much else. He gets up at four AM for work so it kills being able to do much on work nights because he goes works late and then has to go to bed so early. But he's taking me to a Renaissance festival on Sunday and then two weeks later, we'll be going out of town to have some fun away from Dallas for a couple days. We would do that next weekend but pesky doctors appointments for him delay that. Which is fine, ya know, since good health and working on kicking cancer's ass trumps going out of town for a fun couple of days.


Happy Anniversary, Shane!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Orange Mango Grape...

I worked a 12 and 1/2 hour shift yesterday. I got home after midnight so The Boyfriend was asleep. He started his new job this week, which requires him to be up by 6 AM to get ready to start his day. I walked into the room quietly, set all my stuff down and then went to get a quick shower. Then, I dressed in pajama bottoms and a t-shirt and went to lay down in bed. I got in bed gently, which really wasn't necessary. The Boyfriend is a heavy sleeper. I could jump on the bed and he wouldn't budge. I got in gently just in case, though. I leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheek. He did a little smile and stirred a little bit, then wraps his arm around me and pulls me up against him. I asked, quietly, if I woke him up. He says nothing so I know I didn't. I laid there like that for a while, just relaxing and de-stressing from the super long day at work. I didn't have the best day and that helped, even if he wasn't actually awake.

I took this picture last night at work. It's just a picture of a shot on the TV....


I like that score. They were playing the Tigers and all but... they weren't leading Detroit for the whole game so I was worried at one point that maybe sweeping the Yankees over the weekend (nope, still not tired of saying that! :D) might have taken some juice out of my Rangers. No worries, though. Obviously, lol.

Also, I decided I'm going to try doing the Toys For Tots Fundraiser again this year! Lots of bloggers and blog readers and etc donated money last year and helped make it a huge success. Well, by my standards and given the time I decided I wanted to do it in, I'd say it was huge. Click the link to see the posts and see what I'm talking about. I'm going to start in mid-October I think and will post more details starting then. :)

I need to start jotting down random notes during the day. I always think of amusing and/or interesting things I want to blog about in the middle of the day while work tends to be slow and I'm spacing out. Then at night when I'm exhausted or early in the morning when I'm still half asleep, I can never remember any of the stuff I want to post on here. I don't always have time to write the ideas down when I get them but I'll figure something out. Not to be more entertaining or whatever. It's just annoying me that I think up good stuff I want to write about then can't remember while I'm writing.

I do have some dreams I've had recently I want to blog about. For now, I need to pass out. I'm exhausted and don't even know why I'm still up this late. Or why I got back up after I laid down in the first place. I seriously love that you can set blogs to post at any time, though. :D So while it's 3 AM now, this sucker won't see the light of the blog-o-sphere for another 3 hours. I hope to be in a state of complete passed the fuck out at that time. So happy I'm only working an 8 hour shift today so I won't be going in too horribly early. :D

Happy Wednesday, y'all!

Monday, September 6, 2010

This, that, the other thing...

Musical Monday brings you "Maybe" by Sick Puppies. I love this band. They rock live. He seriously sounds better live and they put on a hell of a show. I don't relate to this song but I love it anyway.




I took The Boyfriend out for dinner last night. Nothing fancy or anything but it was nice to have the day off work and to go out to dinner with him. I hardly ever see him anymore because our work schedules clash. We live together and I see him one day out of the week since we both have Sundays off. I now really like Sunday. :p

The Boyfriend starts his new job in one week. I'm quite happy for him. I'm also happy that we'll be able to move out and live on our own again, just the two of us. I miss having my own place. I won't miss having to share a living space with other people. Or a cat. I'm not a cat person. Mostly because I'm seriously allergic to them and I'm not fond of anything that makes me feel disgusting and miserable.


I was out yesterday and heard a group of women in their mid-thirties complaining about how Paris Hilton is not news-worthy. And by heard, I mean they were standing behind me in line and discussing loudly that nothing she does should be news-worthy. This, amuses me. Why? Because all the other celebrities *are* much more news-worthy, eh? *rolls eyes*


There's a customer that comes into my job that looks like Henrik Zetterberg of the Detroit Red Wings. He's come in a few times now, his check is usually $15 or a little less but so far he always tips $10. He's nice, polite and kind of funny. And tips well. And doesn't make a huge mess. I like him, haha.


I have a Tumblr app on my cell now. I'm not on my laptop much since I'm so busy lately, lol.
If the app works well, I'll be able to use Tumblr more since I always have my phone on me. Well, I'll have the ability to use it more but no promise that I actually will. Though, I did post a LOT on there yesterday while I was enjoying doing very little on my day off. :p


HOCKEY SEASON STARTS SOON. :D


And lastly, this quote? I LOVE IT.

“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I’m not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.” - Robert McCloskey

Happy Monday!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

More rambling.......

Today is my first day off since I started my new job. I'm worn out, lol. 60+ hour work weeks with no day off will do that I suppose. I'm still enjoying it despite the hectic hours and the fact that, even though I live with my guy, I rarely see him now. Speaking of, he interviewed for a job on Friday and found out Tuesday that he got it. I'm so happy because now he can quit that shitbox company he currently works for. He'll be working in his field doing what he likes doing and getting paid well. Yay!!! Hopefully we can move out soon and get our own place again. I so miss having our own place.

Anyway... My day off is going to be spent doing laundry and errands. Also have plans to have dinner out with some of the guys. I miss seeing my friends, lol. I think there will be movie watching or video games after dinner, too. I just wish the Boyfriend were going to be hanging out but alas, he'll be at work all night until late. Then I'll be passed out by the time he gets in since I work early Friday.. Yay split shifts. .;)

I got some blade tape to do a giveaway with but I need to think of a good hockey themed contest for people who want to try to win some blade tape. No, I didn't buy it. I had a company contact me and offer to send me some to use and giveaway in exchange for getting their name more out there. Fun fun. I'm always down for helping a good company out. Especially a local one, heh.

My boyfriend got me a footbath spa thing Tuesday night. It bubbles, massages, is heated and all that good stuffs. He's such a sweetheart. :) if anyone can suggest some salts or anything to use in the foot spa thing, go for it. :)

Rangers won again last night over the Twins!!! Hell yes!

Also, is it hockey season yet? :p I know, I know. It's getting closer, though. I'm lucky I dig baseball so I at least have that to keep amused with. Still not as awesome as hockey, though.

Happy Thursday!!!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Chasing Cars...

Yesterday, I went with The Boyfriend to his car club meeting. After the meeting, we went with a group of the car club people to hang out at one of the car club couple's house. The couple are friends of The Boyfriend and I and they're one of the few people in the car club I actually like, lol. Anyway. A group of us were hanging out at their house and one of the women had gotten Hot Tub Time Machine while picking up snacks to bring over. She had seen it already but got it because she wanted to buy it and thought it would be fun for us to all watch it. She was sitting on the love seat with her new boyfriend and she starts talking about parts in the movie... before they happen. Then they happen and she's like, "See, told you that was funny." Ahahaha, it might have been funnier had I not already been ready for it to happen. I don't like this girl (woman really, I think she's 34 or 35) because she's obnoxious, pretentious, thinks she knows everything and she's a bitch. Not that I needed any more reason to dislike her but there was another one. I dislike when people talk through a movie. I'm okay with a little chatter here and there but not a lot of it. I also just really hate when people give away stuff that happens in movies before it happens. Especially when they know they're the only one in the room that has actually seen the movie. I wanted to take my shoe off and hit her with it. Though, that wouldn't have gone over well. In theory, that stuff is always fun sounding. In reality, it would have caused more trouble than it would have been worth. She's pretty good friends with the female half of our couple friends and out of the 8 people there, only me and another person there really dislike this woman. I don't like causing drama so I didn't throw my shoe. I did make a comment about hating getting narration from the audience. She got the hint, glared at me but shut up after that.

Saturday night (or technically Sunday morning since it was 1:00 AM :p), after The Boyfriend got home from work, we played Scrabble. LONGEST GAME EVER. Probably not but it was longer than any other Scrabble game we've played before. It was a very close game too. But.... I won. :D *victory dance* I love playing Scrabble, though. Especially with him because it's always a good game.

I think Midnight Pomegranate lotion from Bath & Body Works smells like SweetTarts candy. It smells a little like pomegranate to me but mostly, it just smells like the candy.

Earlier Saturday night, I was bored and trying to figure out something to keep myself busy with and decided to go clean the bathroom. I was going to clean the toilet but the scrubby brush to do so has gone M.I.A. I really hate when inanimate objects sprout legs & run off. I have no clue where it was but Sunday, it was back in it's spot. I hate when that happens.

I tweeted this around 8 PM Saturday night: I'm wearing a green glow bracelet. Friend asked why. I said, "In case I run into Superman. I'll fuck his world up." That tweet got retweeted by 13 different people. Which amused the hell out of me. I love when people get amused by the silly things I say.

I love this song. I have no reason behind why I'm posting it other than that. :)



Happy Monday!

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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Black Balloon, touchy subjects & Scrabble.




"Black Balloon" by Goo Goo Dolls. <--click for the lyrics. :)
This has been one of my favorite songs for a little more than 10 years. It trips me out when I realize how old I was when I started listening to this band. Or rather, how young I was. This song is from a CD that came out in 1998. I don't have a lot of Cd's I even still own from that long ago but I still have this one and I still listen to it. Obviously. ;) This is probably my favorite song off the whole album. This song used to make me sad and I never understood why, exactly. I'd listen to it and just feel sad for no apparent reason yet, I still loved the song. It's weird how music can play on your emotions like that sometimes. I listen to it now and I still feel the tiniest bit of sadness but mostly, it makes me smile. Not because it's an extremely happy song. There's no rainbows or fairy dust shooting out of anywhere.

Anyway.

You know what's fun? Having a 3+ hour conversation with your boyfriend on topics ranging from defining sexual terms that weren't understood (genderqueer, pansexual, etc & they're understood now :D) to the oil spill in the gulf to self-entitlement to patriarchy to evolution and a couple other things. And I mean fun in all seriousness. Even when we don't agree, though with what was listed we pretty much agree on things, we never get angry and try to make the other person try to bend their views. He can accept that I might not see something his way and same goes for me. It never turns into an argument, it never turns petty and it never turns into something useless that causes frustration and headaches because one side wants the other side to see it their way and come around to their way of thinking. Then again, we mostly agree on those types of things but once in a while there are things we do disagree on that are touchy.
It's fun because we can share our views and not get into an argument over anything, even when we don't agree on something the other feels passionate about. It's always just an intelligent, rational discussion between two people who don't always agree but can respect the opinion of the other.

Also fun? Laying in a freshly cleaned bed playing Scrabble with the boyfriend. I love Scrabble and he's gotten in to playing it lately. Which I love. :D He's got a game on his iPhone where we can both play since I no longer own the actual board game. I would rather lay on the bed and play the actual board game (we don't have any type of table to play on) but such is life. Maybe when I can get the board game again we can do that. The game on his phone works just fine, though. :)

Happy Wednesday!

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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Icing kisses.

Thanks a bunch to everyone who commented to tell the Boyfriend Happy Birthday yesterday. Thanks also to everyone who tweeted him on his Twitter account to wish him a Happy Birthday, too. He worked until around 12:30 AM and got home around 1 AM. I used crayons and some printer paper to make him a birthday card and a couple birthday signs. I made him some food and a birthday cake and used the night stand as a table (we don't live alone so if we want privacy, the only place we get it is the bedroom) to set all the goodies out on. We snacked, talked and watched a movie after he read his birthday card. It was nice.

Veronica over at Another Suburban Mom has a post up about a dance recital. There is actually something incredibly endearing and more than a bit touching that goes along with the cuteness of her daughter's dance recital. I got misty eyed reading it because I was so touched by it. I don't get misty eyed or cry easily at all but this just hit a nerve.
Y'all should head over there and read this post once you're done here.

And just because I'm emotionally exhausted (too much stuff went on yesterday evening and a lot of it wasn't exactly good) and don't feel like writing anything else, I'm going to post these questions that I swiped from Veronica's blog.

1. What curse word do you use the most?
Fuck. Or motherfuck.

2. Do you own an iPod?
I do. I use it a lot however since downloading a free Pandora app onto my cell phone, I find I'm using my iPod a little less.

3. What person do you talk to on the phone the most?
My boyfriend, Fangs, my mom.

4. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Yep. :)

5. Do you remember where you were on 11/9/01?
I can't tell if this is meant to read day/month/year or if they're just using the 9/11 numbers. Either way, I was doing school work or asleep or doing one of the things I did when I was a teenager.

6. What was the last movie you watched?
On DVD, the Boyfriend and I watched The Ugly Truth. In the theater? I think Alice In Wonderland. We can't afford to go very often and I usually don't care about most of what's coming out anyway.

7. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
I'm sure someone has but it's not something I get called often enough to remember.

8. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?
When I have a cold, yes. Otherwise, no. I probably should. Then I'd get more sleep.

9. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Yes. And OMG it's a good one. :)

10. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
It varies. Anything from height, hair, smile, clothes, if they smell good or not, etc. Just depends on what catches my attention first.

11. What are you looking forward to?
Getting a job and not being broke. :( That's pretty much all I'm looking forward to currently. After that, I'll be looking forward to being able to get my own place with the Boyfriend again.

12. Do you own any band t-shirts?
TONS. About half of my t-shirts are band t-shirts. Guess what the other half of my t-shirts are? :p

13. What will you be doing in one hour?
Sleeping for a few hours.

14. Is anyone in love with you?
My boyfriend. :)

15. Last time you cried?
Around 2 hours ago. :/

16. Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop?
Laptop.

17. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yes. Those must wait, for now.

18. Would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos?
I have before.

19. What were you doing before this?
Washing dishes.

20. When is the last time you slept on the floor?
The last time I feel asleep in a friend's living room. I never sleep on the floor here. Hardwood isn't that comfy.

21. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
4. I can do 3 if I end up having too but I need at least 4 to be up and in a decent mood.

22. Do you eat breakfast daily?
Most days. :)

Happy Wednesday!

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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Happy Birthday to you!!

“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”

"Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek & find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."

"When love is not madness, it is not love."


Today is my boyfriend's 25th birthday. I'm exactly two weeks older than him, woohoo.

No one understands me as well as he does. When I met him just over 5 years ago, I didn't imagine I'd end up with him. We were friends and then a little more than that for a year before we got into a relationship together. May was our 4 year anniversary and no one makes me happier than that man does. He makes me laugh, doesn't care that I'm better at sports and video games, bakes me cupcakes, will stand up for me against anyone, understands me, accepts me and all of my flaws and so much more. He's sweet, intelligent, caring, honest, funny and has one of the biggest hearts out of anyone I know.
He treats me so well and he's just an all around wonderful person.

He doesn't blog but he does have Twitter. He checks it more than he actually tweets. So if you Twitter and you want to, go tell him Happy Birthday. :) @IROCbobZ28 is his Twitter name for those of you who don't already follow him.

He doesn't let me show his face online so this is as close as you get. This picture was taken two years or so ago, in a bar where we were celebrating something with a bunch of friends.

Happy Birthday, baby!!!
I love you!!

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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Happy Anniversary!

I have to delay the Gigi review another day because today is a totally important day and I need to write about something special instead.

Today is our anniversary. Who?
The Boyfriend and I, of course. That's right, as of today we have been together for 4 years. 4 YEARS. I know to you married folks and people who have been in committed long term relationships that are going on 10, 15, 18, 25, 37 and on up years, 4 years isn't much but, it's a long time, okay? Okay. We've never broken up and gotten back together a week or a month (or longer) later. We've never separated. We've never taken a break because we "needed space" or some such thing. We've probably both wanted to kill the other a few times here and there. At least, I know I have, hehe.

It's funny to see the way you can grow and change because of a person. Take The Boyfriend for example. Due to my standards for things being higher than his were, he ended up changing the way he expected things to be. Be it from the quality of food he was ingesting or the way people treated him. The thing that annoyed me most about him was that he was so nice, he tended to let people take advantage of his kind heart. He didn't see that but let me tell you, I definitely did. I don't mind that he's kind and has a big heart. In fact, I love that about him. I do mind people taking advantage of him. So, I started pointing out how, when and whom it happened with. He learned and now he's still a kind, generous guy but not to people that will take advantage of his compassionate nature.

Another thing about him? He's more open-minded because of me. :D He grew up rather sheltered where as I, wasn't sheltered at all. We grew up very differently in a lot of areas. He was so afraid to try new things and move out of his comfort zone. I spent so much time moving around, meeting new people, trying new things and just enjoying as much about life as I could that I don't really have a comfort zone to be settled into. I'm a free spirit in a lot of ways. I'm open-minded, spontaneous, adventurous and yeah, sometimes a little (or a lot) impulsive. Him? Pretty much the opposite of all of that. Now? He's more willing to try things he wouldn't even consider before. He's better about going new places, doing new things, trying new foods and pretty much more open-minded in general. He's more open to not having every little detail planned out as long as there's some structure to the plan I hatch because of me and the way I am. Which makes things a lot easier. It's hard to be someone who loves trying and doing new things and be with someone who's scared to do the same. It was more a matter of breaking the shy, reserved guy out of the shell he was in, though. If it hadn't been in him to begin with, it wouldn't be there now.

Now take me for example. I love to be out and about. Doing this, doing that. Even if it's sitting at someones house hanging out, it was better than being at my house doing nothing. I liked to go out all the time. It doesn't mean I spent any money because a lot of the time, I didn't. I have a knack for finding free stuff to do as a matter of fact. I just hated staying at home when there's so much world out there to see and take in. My guy on the other hand? He enjoys going and doing but he also enjoys sitting at home and relaxing. Due to this, I learned to compromise on wanting to be so active and "on" all of the time. Now, I can easily spend a Sunday at home and watch sports and movies all day. I'm content to not go anywhere and do anything. Which currently, due to the state of things, is a good thing because I'd really be losing my mind if I hadn't learned to be content to stay at home.

Another thing with me? I used to have a really bad temper. I'm talking punching walls, breaking stuff, getting so fuming mad that my heart would be pounding in my chest, cussing enough to make a sailor blush, throwing shit at walls (sometimes people); full out rage fits. I would go off over shit that didn't even matter just because it was easy to piss me off. I don't have a lot of that going on anymore. The Boyfriend? It's so HARD to piss him off. He rarely gets angry. He's a mellow kind of guy. I realized that I really needed to work on my anger issues and figure out why I got mad and why I got violent when I got mad. It wasn't healthy to be that way but I didn't realize it until I had The Boyfriend for comparison. Also him telling me to calm the fuck down a few times helped, too. As did him questioning why X,Y,Z would piss me off so badly. It made me look at myself and realize I needed a change.

I don't think you should ever change for a person. If you don't like the way your SO dresses, leave it alone. It makes them, them. I don't believe in making the person you're with change because in my mind, you're just building them into something you want them to be and not accepting them for who they are. I do think that sometimes, we as people can't see the things about ourselves that we need to work on or the things about us that are toxic and need to go. I didn't see how my anger was toxic to me then but I did and I definitely do now. I think that part of a relationship is becoming a better person because of the person you're with. There haven't been any drastic changes for either of us, just minor adjustments where we've both improved for the better.

No one in the world, not a single on, understands me better than my boyfriend does. He just gets me in a way that I didn't think anyone ever would. It's funny because a lot of people think I say odd and random things just to get a reaction out of people or just to shock them. I swear on my life, I don't do that. My mind just works in odd, quirky little ways. I don't sit there trying to think up some of my randomly odd ideas or crazy thoughts. They're just there and it's just the way I am. He knows some of the thoughts that lurk in my mind that I probably wouldn't tell anyone else. I'm comfortable enough with him to admit things to him (some of them being only thoughts, desires and ideas I've had and others being things I've done or tried) that I haven't ever told anyone else about and that surprises me. I'm fairly open as it is for the most part but there are still things I've always kept from everyone. Things that I'd think or do that would kind of weird me out so I never felt okay sharing them with anyone.

He knows me inside and out. All my flaws, quirks and awesome traits and he still loves me. Even when I go off on him for something stupid because even if my temper has gotten much more under control, I'm still a hot headed, moody bitch at times. :D He's patient, kind, loving, honest, loyal, trustworthy, understanding, non-judgmental, sweet, funny, goofy and wonderful. He treats me well. Better than well. He'll go without things if he has to to keep me from going without something. He goes out of his way for me. He takes care of me when I'm sick. He comforts me when I need it. He makes me laugh when I'd like to punch him or other people in the face. He understands me. He calms me down when I'm so mad I'm seeing red.

He made me realize I wasn't some weird, horrible, angry little person who didn't deserve to be loved. I was such a broken individual, no matter how hard I tried to pretend otherwise. I was so ridiculously miserable when he came into my life. It kind of stings writing that because even now, I have trouble wanting to admit how terribly unhappy I was.
He makes me so happy. And part of that is because I'm a better person because of him. Part of it is because I was finally comfortable enough with someone to open up to them, tell them what was wrong and how I was hurting and he helped. He never judged me for anything I said or anything I felt. He held me while I cried once I was comfortable enough to let him see me that vulnerable. He didn't always tells me things were going to be okay because sometimes he didn't know how to help me through something. He worked through it with me when I tried to sabotage our relationship because I thought I didn't deserve someone as great as he is. And even through everything, he stayed with me and worked through things until I was in a better place. I still have shit I'm trying to work through but he helps. He'll always listen, he never pretends to have all the answers, he never judges and he never tells me what he thinks I want to hear because he always knows that what I want is the truth, even when it's going to hurt.

I'm a better person because of what he's brought to my life. Today makes it 4 years since we've been together. Honestly, it doesn't feel like it's been that long at all. I can't believe it's really been that long but it has. I think that's a good thing. Hopefully I'm saying the same thing every year from now for the rest of the time that we're together.

Oh and don't ask why we've been together so long and aren't married. We're not in any rush and we're definitely not in any financial situation to even think about getting married. There's also no law that says you have to marry someone if you've been with them for 2 years or more. It always irritates me when people ask why we're not married yet, as if there's some kind of timeline that's acceptable and we've passed that time right on by without doing what we were "supposed" to do. If we get married, it'll happen when it happens and not before then. ;)
Happy Anniversary baby! I love you. :)

Happy Tuesday!

Comments please?

Monday, April 5, 2010

Silence & sincerity..

Silence is better than insincerity.

This is something I find myself saying at times when I'm opening up to a friend about something. Usually when they're apologizing for not knowing what to say in response to something I have said. I would rather someone honestly tell me they have nothing to say than to tell me something they don't really mean. When I vent to people, I don't want them to coddle me. I don't want them to lie to me and make me feel better. I only have a handful of people I vent to and honestly, it's because they never sugarcoat, coddle, judge, lie to spare my feelings, lie to make me feel better or do any crap like that. I also trust those people that I vent to implicitly. I don't trust easily and I don't open up to that many people but that's another monster for another day.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About myself, the way I feel about various things, etc. A lot of things about thoughts and feelings I have. Some new, some recent and some that I stifled and never dealt with a long time ago. Mostly, it's stuff that I've stuffed down and ignored from years ago. I figured I was passed a lot of those things but really, I had just ignored them well enough. In working on myself to become a better person in recent months, I realized I have so much shit I need to deal with. Things that I thought didn't bother me anymore. I realized I had done such a good job at hiding everything from other people that I'd ended up mistaking that as having certain issues resolved. How silly of me, eh?

I had a long talk with Fangs last night and I love him for always being straight with me. I vented about some things that he's never had to deal with and he had no clue what to say. He said as much, too. His words? "I'm sorry, I wish I had something helpful to say but I just don't know what to say. I won't lie and pretend I understand because I know I don't and I won't lie and give you some cliche insincere bullshit either."

That is what I love about him. I'd rather be told that than have someone pour out a bunch of cliche bullshit that is anything but sincere. It's not helpful at all either because I know insincere bullshit when I hear it.

Which is also something I love about my boyfriend. He might not always know what to say but he never lies to me, never sugarcoats things for me. Sometimes, he (along with those friends I vent to) say things that sting, say things that I don't always want to hear and say things that sometimes piss me off. I love them for that though because those things are generally things I need to hear. They're not mean or petty about anything. They just tell me the truth and tell me things I need to hear. They never back away from saying something to me for fear that it will piss me off. Even when they know it will piss me off. As Fangs says, he'd rather me be mad at him for a few hours over keeping his mouth shut when he shouldn't have.
And if they don't know what to say, they don't say anything. They never pretend to understand when they don't. I don't always respond well but I appreciate and love them for doing things the way they do.

I'd rather have someone be honest with me, even if it means I open up about something and they have nothing more than a hug and a shoulder in exchange. Having a boyfriend and some close friends that are like that in my life helps me so much.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

All the voices mistaken..


This picture was taken yesterday evening at the American Airline's Center. It was during warm-ups for the Stars vs Sharks game. Yes, it's empty because a lot of people don't care about watching them warm up. I don't care about walking around looking at everything or checking out the Fan Shop for the 100th time. Granted, a lot of people there were there for the first time tonight. Some people just enjoy walking around and soaking up the crowd, eating before the game at one of the concessions/restaurants, socializing in the bar with the over priced drinks, etc. I just have more fun and prefer watching warm-ups. ;)

Boyfriend and I got to go to the game thanks to our friends, Chevelle and his girlfriend Snakebites. They had four tickets to the game and the other two people were no longer able to go. So, Snakebites asked us if we would be willing to go with them and be their "dates" for the game. Uh, hell yeah. And calm down, it wasn't a real date of any type. We're not swingers and neither are they. I digress. So, we got to go to the game for free and it was against San Jose, which is a team I've never been present to see the Stars play. The seats were pretty good too and as always, I'm always just fucking happy to go to a hockey game.

The Stars won, 5-1. YEAH! I LOVE when they beat San Jose. I can't stand that team. Not that I actually like a lot of other NHL teams honestly. There are a couple, SJ just isn't one of them. They're a good team, though. In fact, they're ranked number one in the Western Conference with 104 points. Of course, they're awesomeness is usually a regulation season thing. Playoff time is a different story, har har har.

Steve Ott (pictured above & no, I didn't take this one. Sadly, lol) got his first career hat trick, which was awesome to see. I wish I had thought sooner to get a picture of all the hats on the ice but I didn't think of it until most of them were cleaned up. You know, too busy cheering and yelling to worry about a picture. It was a great game to go to. Probably the last Stars game I'll go to this season so I'm glad it was a good one.

The only downside is that my boyfriend usually works 4 PM to 12 AM but since the game was at 7:30 PM, he got someone to switch shifts with him at work so he could have the night free to go to the game. Which was nice and I'm glad he got to go. We got food after the game, spent some time chatting and then he took me home and had to leave so he could work midnight to 8 AM. That's only a downside because Wednesday, he didn't get to sleep in any later than he normally does because he had to get up and take care of things. I know he's going to be super tired when he gets off work so I worry about him driving home having spent all night at work instead of sleeping, lol. Luckily, it's only about 30 miles from his job to where we live so not too bad of a drive normally. I know when you're exhausted and haven't slept, driving short distances seems like it takes forever. I think he was going to drink a Red Bull though so I trust that he'll be alright. Hopefully he can come home and pass out so he can resume his regular work schedule later today.

I wrote this around 2 AM then set it up to auto-post at 7 AM. For some reason, some of my auto-post blogs haven't been posting. Hopefully this one does otherwise I'll just publish when I get on next, lol. I think the last time I had one that didn't post when I set it up to was almost a week ago. Blogger can be such a bitch sometimes. ;)

I can't decide what I want to feature on Drink of the Day tomorrow. I also can't decide if I will keep doing it every week or not. I might make it every other week instead of every Friday. I would like to know how many of you actually come by to check out the Drink of the Day posts and would be interested in seeing it continue on every week. Any feedback on that would be appreciated!

Happy Thursday!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Stars, cars, turkeys, etc...

Yesterday was a busy day. The Boyfriend and I watched the Stars game. Which started out well but didn't end well. That's all I'm saying. Bummer. Seriously. It looked like... never mind. *SIGH*

After that, we had to go to the Boyfriend's favorite "geek" store because some parts of his computer died and he needed to replace something. Boyfriend built his own computer so yeah, dude knows what he's doing and also gets major lust eyes when he's in said store. He sees computer parts, cases and tons of other shit I have no clue about and stands there drooling and coveting over these parts. It's kind of like the way I stand there and covet the bad ass car cruising by me (which happened later when I saw a Bugatti Veyron and almost had a fucking orgasm at the sight of it. OMG) when I see one of my dream cars cruising by me. Which is cute as hell because he doesn't get all lusty eyed and tongue wagging over much at all. It's cars and computer parts that do that with him. That computer parts get him all googly eyed? I think that's cute. I love my computer nerd.

After that, we drove out to his car club meeting. Some sexy muscle cars and some not so sexy muscle cars take up a row and then some in the parking lot of the place they do it at. Mostly, they're all freshly washed and shiny as fuck from wax. We hang out and we chat with people in the car club. I'll admit, I like a small handful of the people in his car club and mostly they're the ones that he is friends with and hangs out with outside of car club events. The rest of them? Some are okay. A lot of them are tools.

One of Boyfriend's buddies from the car club introduced us to his new girlfriend. I smiled and politely said hello to her once he introduced us. She looked at me, said absolutely nothing, didn't even smile at me. Then, she turned away from me and & started talking to the Boyfriend. I just chuckled. Stuff like that from chicks doesn't piss me off, honestly. It's a catty, rude, total bitch move. I have no idea why she chose to act like that, maybe she's insecure and doesn't like other girls. Maybe she didn't like the way I looked. Especially when I'm standing there with my boyfriend which means I clearly have no interest in a friend of my boyfriend's anyway. I think it ticked her off more that I chuckled at her behavior and continued to smile at her as she glared at me for no real reason. Whatever, I have no clue and I don't understand why people act like that. Aside from it being rude and petty, it's also plain stupid and downright fucking silly.

After that, it was off to a friends house. They were grilling burgers and going to hang out. Free food and good company? Yes please.

Once we got to their house, everyone stood around talking cars for a while outside. Which was fun, as always. They are all car guys and were talking about various different things they want done next to their cars, things they wouldn't do, etc. I get amused by how excited Boyfriend's buddy D always gets when talking about his car. He looks like a kid on Christmas morning.

After the car talk, we got into sports a little bit. Mostly it was Stars talk. Which I never mind. =) I'm always down for talking about hockey. Or football, baseball, basketball or a few other sports.

Then after that, it was music talk. K was telling us how awesome a couple of recent shows we missed were. Which sucks because two of them weren't announced and we didn't know about until it was too late. We wouldn't have had the money to go anyway but given what K does for a job, we wouldn't have needed money anyway because he would have gotten us in for free. He kind of fucking rocks like that. He is the reason I got front row on the rail at the Incubus concert last year instead of sitting way the fuck in the back, on the amphitheater lawn where I had tickets at. He is all kinds of bad ass like that.

This is why I love hanging out with guys. Talking about cars, sports and metal is fucking awesome because those are three of my absolute favorite things and things that I know quite a lot about. I never feel out of place like I do most of the time around groups of females. (And yes, I am fully aware
not all guys like these things. I have plenty of male friends who don't know cars or who don't care about sports or who prefer to listen to country or jazz. Blah blah blah. There are always exceptions to each and every rule.) Most girls I know don't know much about sports and don't care to know either. And even more don't know much beyond basics about cars and don't care to know more either. While there are chicks like me, D's wife and other women I know that love sports and cars (and plenty that I don't know that are out there) who know and understand a lot about both topics; there are more that don't know, understand or care and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. It can sound sexist all fucking day and honestly I don't care because it's true.

Anyway... D and D's Wife are awesome hosts. They grilled burgers and hot dogs and had plenty of stuff to munch on and drink. They just recently moved into their house after getting married late last year. They've got a nice little house and enjoy having people over. Usually it's D, D's Wife, The Boyfriend, myself and a bunch of guys. Fun times usually because most of the people they invite over are people we all mutually know one way or another and they're all pretty chill and laid back. Plus, their puppies are fucking adorable and so well behaved. They tell them to go out of the room, they go. Go outside, they go. Go lay down, they go.

While hanging out, one of the guys admitted he was afraid of turkeys. This came about while he was talking about his fear of horses and how he would rather ride a camel over going horseback riding or riding a horse anywhere in general. Which stemmed from seeing a show about horse racing on television. I digress. We wanted to know why he was scared of turkeys. So, he being the cool guy he is, very willingly explained his turkey phobia.

"I got attacked by a turkey when I was 5. I liked to chase chickens and they don't do anything but run when you chase them. I never hurt them, just ran around with them. Then, one day, I saw the turkey and was thinking MAN THAT'S A BIG BIRD! So I went to chase it and yeah that backfired. It was mean. The turkey started to chase me. It was flapping around all crazy and making all kinds of crazy fucked up noises. Scariest moment of my life. I enjoy Thanksgiving so much, I show the turkeys who's boss now."

It might not be that funny in text but if you had heard him tell it, seeing his hand gestures, facial expressions, tone of voice and all that jazz... you would have been rolling with laughter like all of us were. It was fucking hilarious.

Now, it's late as hell. Boyfriend is working on his computer still and I'm finishing this post up, watching the end of Law Abiding Citizen and about to pass the fuck out. I seriously hope this post goes up when it's supposed to. I've been having trouble with things that are set up to post not posting on time or at all lately.

Happy Monday!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

My stuff in pictures...

I got this idea to do a post where I show off various things in my room. Nothing special or fancy mostly, just stuff that we have in our bedroom and some of my favorite things. I thought it would be fun and looking around trying to figure out what I wanted to take a picture of to post was kind of amusing. I also didn't want to post too much in case I decide to do this again, lol.

This is as straight as my hair ever gets/stays.
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Little Sister got me this badass collectors set for the movie 300 for Christmas two years ago. It's sitting in the entertainment center in front of a Sega Dreamcast that belongs to the Boyfriend.



If you read my blog back in August 2008 and you're still here doing the same (thanks for that!) then you might have seen the original post where Bat Bear debuted on my blog. He was a random gift from the Boyfriend that he sent me while I was living in CA. Click the link for the story on him and to see more pics, if you want.



Yes, these are Stars dice. They're dangling on one of the hooks that hold the shelves up.



A few of my graphic novels.
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My shoe.




My iPod, rocking All That Remains.




One of my penguin mugs. Yes, I have a few. This one holds pens and markers though.




My Jack Skellington messenger bag.





One of my favorite pictures we have hanging in the bedroom.





My hockey puck autographed by Brenden Morrow and Stephane Robidas of the Dallas Stars. ♥ One signature is seen here, the other is on the other side. =)




A small section on the DVD shelf. Also, that's my pirate hat resting on top there, lol.



DVD's from left to right: X-Men Trilogy, Dazed and Confused, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Sweeney Todd, Zack and Miri, Triple Feature (featuring Benny & Joon, Edward Scissorhands & From Hell), The Big Lebowski, Max Payne, Robots, Gran Torino, The Polar Express, The Dark Knight, Clerks II, RockNRolla, Law Abiding Citizen & Miami Vice.



The End!
Happy Tuesday!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin...

The Olympics are over which means the NHL has resumed! Yay! Last night the only game was Detroit vs Colorado. As much as I don't care for Colorado, I really wanted them to win. Detroit and Dallas were tied in points but a win would have put them over us and moved them into eighth place in the Western Conference standings. Come playoff time, the top eight teams for each conference play in the playoffs. The rest go home for the season. So since Detroit had to go and win last night, they got their two points and are now in eighth place. Nice for them. It was a pretty good game though and I'll admit, Lidstrom's goal was pretty as hell. Anyway, the Stars play LA tonight. Hopefully they win. They were on a hot streak before the Olympic break so hopefully they'll see fit to continue on with that for the rest of the season and actually make it into the playoffs. Go Stars!

I am SO FUCKING EXCITED that Alice In Wonderland comes out this weekend. I love Alice In Wonderland. It always seemed so strange and wonderful to me and has intrigued me since I was a little kid. I got excited when I found out they were making the movie. Then when I found out Tim Burton would be directing it, well that just got my metaphoric cock hard. I LOVE Tim Burton's work. The cast doesn't hurt either since one of my favorite actors is in there plus a few others that I think are pretty good. We (the boyfriend and I) rarely actually go to the movie theater to see anything. I don't like being around all the obnoxious people who insist on texting, talking and doing other things through the movie. I'm the sit down, shut up and watch the movie type. Blah blah blah. So, we rarely go and just opt to wait for it to come out on DVD. Unless it's something we both really want to see, then generally, we still wait until it's out on DVD, lol. Going to movies the night they come out? I can count on one hand how many time that's happened. And after we go see Alice on Friday, I'll still be able to count on one hand how many times that's happened. ;)

So, something that amuses me about people? Not in a really funny way that makes me smile and feel happy but in a very ironic sort of way that makes me shake my head and wonder what the fuck goes through people's minds. Of course, I don't mean all people and I don't really mean anyone in specific either. I’m just talking a general observation of something I’ve noticed over the years about a lot of people. Thankfully, I don’t know a lot of people that do this but I do know some. Anyway, if someone they don't really know or someone they don't really like does something they perceive to be wrong; they jump that person's shit over it. Or, they talk shit to other people about it or they say nothing and just seethe about it quietly. Though, if a friend of theirs comes along and does that same wrong thing or another different thing they generally perceive as wrong; they'll defend it. Find a way to justify it and make it not such a bad thing even though had it been someone they didn‘t know or like, they would have been pissed over it. I don't think in black and white terms as a general rule. I get that more often than not, there are plenty of shades of gray filling in between the black and white. However, I just don't get that way of thinking, that way of justifying and warping things around. If you perceive something is wrong, then it's fucking wrong, no matter who is doing it.

Now, I'm going to go lay in bed with the Boyfriend and watch about 10 to 15 minutes of the movie UP. Or maybe more than that but probably not. Generally when I lay in bed and I'm tired (as I am now) I don't make it longer than 10 or 15 minutes with a movie playing. I pass right out and never even make it a quarter of the way through. Though last night, we watched RocknRolla and I managed to stay awake through the whole thing and then promptly passed the fuck out once it was over. At least I made it through the whole movie though. ;)

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Sometimes, I ramble.

I didn't watch the Super Bowl. I didn't care about the game and didn't care about the commercials. I can see the commercials online if I choose. Though honestly, I really don't care since I rarely find any commercials that amusing anyway. However, if one particularly struck your fancy or gave you a real good giggle, please feel free to mention it. I didn't care about the game because I have no preference to either team that played. While I'm a Cowboys fan (stop laughing, that's my home team after all) as far as the NFL is concerned, there are a couple other teams I like. None of which happened to be playing yesterday. Which is why, I didn't really care about who won and didn't feel like watching. Though, I couldn't avoid the tweets when I hopped on Twitter because almost everyone was tweeting about it. Which is why I was avoiding it for the most part. I did see New Orleans won so that's good for them, as a team and as a city/community.

Instead of the big game, I watched a ton of episodes of Modern Family and Family Guy. I don't watch much TV really but I love those two shows. I don't have an interest in most shows that come on otherwise. I prefer to watch things where I can learn something or sports. The Boyfriend and I are poor kids so we can only afford basic television and don't have cable or anything fancy. Which sucks because I miss Discovery Channel, NHL Channel, Food Network, Cartoon Network, History Channel and ESPN something fierce. IF you're wondering how I watch so many hockey games when we only have plain ol' TV, I have the answer to that. I either go to a friend's house, go to a sports bar or find a stream online and watch on my laptop. Fun times. I will go to great lengths to see hockey. Also, unlike the NFL, I'll watch the entire playoffs and Stanley Cup series even if Dallas isn't a part of any of it. Even if the other teams I semi like aren't in it because well, I love hockey that much. =)

My hair grows too quickly. I have a love/hate relationship with that. I love that it grows quickly because it's healthy. I hate it because it gets on my nerves, lol. I wish my step-cousins wife actually lived in Texas. I'd totally get her to do my hair again. Not because she does it for free (that is nice though) but because I don't mind her doing it. I'm crazy about who I let touch my hair. Which is why I rarely get it cut and just usually trim the ends myself at home. Which I'll probably end up doing later today since I can't afford a hair cut and I'm apprehensive about letting anyone touch my hair anyway, lol.

Something bugging me right now? I keep hearing footsteps but no one's awake and I'm damn sure not walking around typing on my laptop. If I stop and listen, they get faint as hell. If I try to ignore it, they're loud and stomping. Something is being quite annoying and should really knock it off.

Something else bugging me? I had a review and a Drink of the Day post scheduled to auto post over the weekend. Neither post ended up publishing. I checked and the dates and times were current and correct. No clue what the fuck happened. I've had this issue before but lately, it seems to be happening more frequently and it's really annoying. So Blogger, knock it the fuck off. Bitch. <3 href="http://www.amazon.com/Pixar-Short-Films-Collection-1/dp/B000V1Y44G">Pixar Short Films Collection DVD is one of my absolute favorite things to watch.

Someone asked me a random question via direct message on Twitter yesterday. I shall share it here now. =) Question was, "Do you ever watch TV/listen to music while falling asleep?" My reply to that was that yes, I do tend to listen to music to fall asleep. Which prompted the second question of, "What 3 bands are your favorite to fall asleep listening to?" My answer to that? Opeth, Incubus and Nightwish. With Opeth and Nightwish, it's because almost all of their music is so relaxing and beautiful to me. With Incubus, they're one of my absolute favorite bands and I love Brandon Boyd's (lead singer) voice.

The Boyfriend and I went to see Sherlock Holmes last night. I know, most people who wanted to see it already have and that's cool. I'm not a big fan of going to the movies. It's expensive and people are generally obnoxious and have no manners. So, I like to go when a movie is on it's way out of the theaters. I figured between the big football even last night, it being a Sunday night, being late and being a movie that's on it's way out of the theaters that it would be the perfect time to go see it. I was totally right. Only two other people were in there with is. They weren't paying attention to the movie though. If your mind went to the gutter there, you're right on track. If it didn't go there, well, it should have by now, lol. They were fairly quiet though except for a few times when they were talking, giggling or making other noises that were louder than the movie. That only happened a few times though so it wasn't really annoying. Though why in hell anyone would want to pay $17 to have a dark place to make out and fool around a little bit is beyond me. Especially when one or possibly both of them have their own apartment. They didn't actually fuck in the theater, which I know because the woman was on her cell in the restroom after the movie at the same time as I was explaining to someone quickly what they had done and what she hoped to do once they got back to his apartment. Oh and yes, she did remember to bring condoms. Good for them. =)

Happy Monday!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

It's a big one!

I had to bring back the damn word verification on comments. Sorry but it won't be there long. Just a couple weeks to get the spam out of here. I contemplated just disabling anonymous comments but I have a lot of super long time readers who comment that way since they don't have blogs and don't want their google account info out there. It's all good. Word verification is just a minor inconvenience. A temporary one at that.

Also, I'm going to be changing something soon. I'll have a new URL and I'll be writing under a different name. The blog title will be the same. The content will be a bit different. The name I'll be writing under will be my real first name though. I'm a little freaked out by that but meh, not really. I'm doing that because I am writing articles for a couple different websites and I want to be able to tie those in with my blog. The articles are under my real first name though and tying them in with my blog will help for the exposure that I want to get with that. The content change won't be huge. Just the addition of the articles, more posts with substance, much less about sex, more about sports than I already post, more creative writing like I used to do and all around just less crap. I'll still post pictures but I will not be participating in HNT anymore, ever. I just don't care to do it anymore. I don't have any interest in it. It's not that I don't want to do it because I think I have too many people coming here just to perv at my tits or whatever. I don't care about that. I just don't have an interest in doing it anymore. Anyway, I'm working on design for the new blog and eventually just want my own domain. I'll need help with that. After I can afford it which is the issue with not setting up my own domain now, lol. Anyway, moving on to something else.

I'm almost done with the book of stories I'm doing too. It's a collection of all the weird and sometimes crazy dreams I have. I got the idea from several people to put a collection of those stories together and make a book. I've been working on it for months. I think I've got a good amount now, I just have another dream I want to add to it. A recurring one I have. I'm just having trouble writing it but I'm happy it's all coming together.

My Stars play the Columbus Blue Jackets tonight. Which will be interesting because CBJ just fired their head coach, Ken Hitchcock, yesterday. Hitchcock is also a former Dallas Star's head coach. We played a damn good game on Tuesday night against the Minnesota Wild. We won that one in regulation 2-4. Turco, who has had a struggle this season, played the best game he's played all damn season. Which I hope he can keep up since they're talking trades in regard to him. He's one of my favorite players (I'm wearing my Turco Stars jersey tshirt right now as a matter of fact) and I'd be sad as hell to see him go. Though if that does end up happening, I'm not going to be surprised since I expect it to given his performance this season. Hopefully the Stars play tonight the way they did Tuesday. Aside from Turco being solid in net, the whole team played better than they have in a while. Everyone seemed like they were working really well together and it was a damn good game. Much better than Sunday against Phoenix. The Boyfriend and I went to the Phoenix game and bleh, that was a sad game to sit through. Though we always stay until the very end. I did get some cool pictures during the game that I spammed Twitter with, lol.

Speaking of Twitter, I asked for some questions and said I'd answer 5 of them on my blog today. I got some really good questions. Please don't be offended if I didn't pick yours to answer on here. Especially since I already privately answered the ones I didn't use, lol.

@TonyChliek: If you could do it all over again what one thing would you change? Remember your life will take a 180 if you change anything.

Easy. I wouldn't change anything at all. I realize that changing one thing in the passed could end up changing entirely everything about the present if I had the chance to go back and change something. So, I wouldn't change a thing. Everything I've done up until this point, while sometimes reckless and stupid, has gotten me to where I am today and made me the person I am. I don't regret the way I've lived my life even though I've done some dumb things, illegal things, made poor choice, been human, etc. I don't dwell on mistakes either. I learn from them and move on. I see no point in dwelling or second guessing things that can't be changed.


@zhukov43: if you could have had a time specific career in history what would it have been
?

That's a tough one. There are a lot of things I'd dig going back and doing. I'd love to go back and join Amelia Earhart in her journey and adventures.

Perhaps a cook or something in the palace of King Loui XVI and Marie Antoinette. Just so I could creep around and see what was really going down.

Maybe go back to the late 1400's/early 1500's and be an explorer. How could would it have been to do that? I love adventure and I love the unknown. I'm always trying new things and wanting to go and see new places. I would have loved exploration back in a time when everything was so much less developed and so unknown.

I could also go back and stalk William Shakespeare. More so, I wouldn't really want to stalk him. I'd just want to find out if there was ever any truth to the controversy over rumors that he didn't write his own plays. Was he he fraud or were people just haters who wouldn't believe you didn't need a formal education to be able to write beautiful brilliance? I'm sneaky, I'd find that shit out.

That's good on that. I could go on for a long time about things in history I would have like to see or be a part of, lol.


Kevin
(asked that his Twitter page not linked): I know you love watching hockey and you certainly understand it and love it so would you ever consider playing?

I did play hockey, actually. I played for several years when I was younger. Mostly it was only guys playing but there were two other girls that played in the league as well. One of my brothers played too, not on the same team. I can't recall if we ever had to play each other though. That was such a fun time in life. I loved it. I still play for fun, just not on a team. I really don't have the time to dedicate to that but it would be fun. Maybe one day. ;)


Josh (
asked that his Twitter page not linked): Have you ever been kicked out of a bar or club before?

Yes but never because of something I did. It was always because of someone else that was in the group acting foolish. That hasn't happened in 5 years though. I don't hang out with morons who don't know how to act anymore. =)


Tawny (asked that her Twitter page not linked): What is one event that happened to you that was really hard to overcome?

Being in an armed robbery, having a gun to the back of my head, being surrounded by guys all in black. Having one of them yelling at me, screaming obscenities and threatening to kill me as he waved a gun at me. It was without a doubt, the most scary thing I've ever been through and it changed the way I felt about a lot of things. It changed the way I saw a lot of things. It changed me in a lot of ways. Sadly, not all of those were good changes but still, things changed and I learned to cope with the things that weren't for the better. I went through some really weird phases because I refused to talk about it and I refused to get help. I was so angry at myself because I felt so weak for feeling so scared. I was constantly anxious and on the verge of panic attacks. I was a mess and I was angry at myself for being a mess. It was the hardest thing I've gone through in all honesty. It didn't have to be as hard as I made it. I should have gone to a therapist like people wanted me to but I didn't. I should have talked about it more with someone, especially since I refused to see a therapist. I should have wrote about it. I should have talked about my feelings. I should have done that differently but I didn't and that's just the way it is. I didn't know what to do or how to deal. I was confused, hurting, angry, anxious, scared and pretty much a big fucking mess inside. I don't regret not reaching out more or going to get help though. In not doing that, I learned what I had to do to push myself through and to help myself get passed this. I did talk to my boyfriend about it and I did tell him some of what I was going through so it wasn't like I shut it all in. I had a friend I talked to a little bit as well. Though, I'm not on good terms with that dude anymore but still, he listened and tried to reach out when he wasn't too busy dwelling in his own problems. My boyfriend saw me and knew what a mess I was. He saw the crazy things I was doing like obsessively checking locks on doors and windows and obsessively going to check out what 'that noise was' every time I heard anything at all. And meh, all the other stuff I was doing. He helped me in a lot of ways and it made us closer. Had I not relied on him so much while I tried to work my issues and anxieties out, I'm not sure where I would have been. Had it not been for him, I might have killed myself with alcohol poisoning too since I was drinking more than any human being should ever drink. And having him stick by my while I teetered between working through my issues in a crazy manner and self-destructing? That made me realize that he is an absolutely wonderful guy and that what we had is truly special. I knew he was great but having an epic melt down where you're acting like an irrational, crazy, confused girl quite often or being a crazy bitch or just drowning in booze and having someone there who will stand by you in all of it and not walk away? It made me realize that my previous notion that no long term relationship would ever be worth it was so wrong. It also made me realize that I wasn't this horrible, selfish, meaningless person unworthy of love from someone other than family members.

Did you make it this far? Grab yourself a cookie, lol. This is the longest post I've written in a long time and honestly, it's not that lengthy. I definitely have posts in the archives that make this one seem like a few short paragraphs, lol.

Happy Thursday!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Random ramblings & a prize give away.

I've seen a lot of people doing Wish Lists for the holidays. So rather than doing one on my blog where I list everything I want, I'll just post a link to my Wish List on Amazon if anyone out there feels like buying me anything off there say I have a decent sized list on Amazon with plenty of stuff I actually need on there. If you want the link to view my Amazon Wish List, just tell me via comment or email and I'll send you the link. =)

Also, gift cards (Target, Best Buy, Barnes & Noble) are always great. As are hockey tickets to Dallas Stars games. Hockey tickets for Christmas equals totally amazing. Yep yep. Even though my Stars fucking lost to the Canes last night. *cringe* Though at least the Canes were playing oddly well last night so it wasn't too bad but still. My Stars play the Thrashers tonight and hopefully we fair better against them. And yes, I have to put Stars in green coloring every time the word is said in reference to my hockey team.

If you haven't seen the Toys for Tots pictures of all the toys that were acquired through the fundraiser that I did, check here and here. It was a great success in my opinion and again I want to say THANK YOU to everyone who helped me promote the cause and THANK YOU again to everyone who donated money. Y'all rock. The 19th or the 20th at the latest will be your last chance to donate to the Genesis Women's Shelter Toy Drop.

My boyfriend is amusing and weird sometimes. I'm usually the one who comes up with off the wall things out of no where but sometimes he does it too. Which is more amusing because it doesn't happen often. So when he says things like "Mosquitoes don't eat cherry flavored Jell-O because it's too sweet for them. Plus, the frogs told them not to anyway." it makes me laugh more so because he's usually not so odd and random. That's probably not funny to you but given the conversation we were having, it was fucking hilarious. Also, ridiculous as hell. Fun times, I say.

I mentioned doing a blog give away a while ago and now here I come with the details. That wonderful boyfriend of mine gets the majority of the credit here as it was his idea to do this and he will be the one supplying the gift card. The prize is going to be a gift card to a store of your choosing from a list of stores we have locally. You get to pick the place you want it coming from. Target, Best Buy, Bath & Body Works, Borders, Starbucks, Ulta, etc, whatever. Also there may be an extra little something or two tossed in there as well, just for fun. Perhaps a sample packet of my new favorite lube, maybe a travel size soy wax candle for wax play, some homemade treat or something else. Who knows? ;)

All you have to do to enter the contest give away is show me your Christmas decorations, indoors and outdoors. I like decorating the house inside and out for holidays. I also LOVE to see what other people do for decorations. So, all you have to do to enter the contest is snap some pictures to show off how you decorated. Of course, like any other contest, there are a few rules.

*You have to have a blog.

*You have to take no less than 3 pictures of your decorations.

*You can do outdoor only, indoor only or show off both ;).

*If you don't want to post the pictures in a blog post, you can email them to amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Please include a link to your blog anyway if you do send them by email.

*If you do post the pictures in a blog post, please comment back or email me the link to the post so I know and can come check your pictures out.

*You have until December 24th to submit your entry for the contest.

The winner will be picked by myself and my boyfriend. I will make another post announcing the winner after the 24th. Don't skip entering just because you think you might not have decorated enough either! Bigger isn't *always* better you know. Sometimes less really is more. ;)


Happy Thursday!