Saturday Secrets #9

Saturday Secrets #9

Secret #1: I’m in love with my best friends boyfriend.

Secret #2: I post pictures of his cock on the internet even though he's asked me not to. I freak out when he uses my desktop because I fear he'll look through the history and see what I'm doing. It's such a magnificent cock though! It NEEDS to be seen.

Secret #3: I hate all the attention you get just because you're sick. I wish you would get over your depression so people would stop feeling so bad for you and showering you with attention, affection and gifts.

Secret #4: When I see people on Twitter flirting with so many different people, it makes me roll my eyes. I feel bad for them for needing so much attention and validation that they'll flirt and act coy with people on the internet that they're not even attracted to in some cases just for the attention. It's pitiful.

Secret #5: I want you to stop doing drugs. I wish you wanted to stop. It hurts to see you so fucked up all the time. I just want you to be healthy and happy. I know you're not..... :(

Secret #6: Most girls want to be that girl in the Fairy Tale Romance movie. I always thought it would be cooler to be the girl a guy wrote an awesome love song about.

Secret #7: I masturbate to the Disney movies Cinderella and The Little Mermaid. I did once to Beauty and the Beast with Belle but it's not as good as Cinderella or Ariel.

Secret #8: I made out with him but all I could think about was you. I miss you.

Secret #9: I think about you all of the time. It makes me want to cry knowing you never think about me.

Secret #10: Sometimes, when we're having sex, I fantasize about fucking Elton John. I know he's gay but I would hit that all night long.

Secret #11: Two packages of Ex Lax, cupcake mix and chocolate frosting. I hope you didn't share those special cupcakes with anyone, you selfish bastard because you're the only one who deserved some gentle relief. That's for cheating on me. I hope you had her over when it hit you and you had to shit your guts out. I take it back, I hope you shared the special cupcakes with at least her. Fuck you both.

Secret #12: I want to have a threesome with Brandon Boyd and Jared Leto. By the way.... If that happened it would be a MMM threesome.

Secret #13: I'm lesbian and I have a massive crush on my older brothers girlfriend. She told me she is bisexual and that she is allowed to fool around with girls. She wants to fool around with me but I'd feel awkward knowing she would fool around with me and then go fool around with my older brother. Or vice versa.

Secret #14: I sometimes think of all the vicious and mean things I'd like to say to you but I always keep them in my head only. Sometimes I want to say mean things just to hurt you to get back at you for some of the times you've hurt me. I could rip you to shreds with words but I hold my tongue well.

Secret #15: I want to be the meat in a Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles sandwich.


I need some secrets for my Saturday posts. :D If you want to submit a secret for me to use next weekend (COME ON, DON'T BE SHY! :D) then just e-mail it to me: amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Or leave it as a comment here anonymously if you want to do it that way and I'll copy it and use it for next weekend's Secrets posts. ;)

Happy Saturday!

Saturday Secrets #8

Saturday Secrets #8

Secret #1: I feel like a complete loser because I'm terminally single, I judge my life totally on if I'm with a woman or not, nothing else matters that much to me to be honest. waking up in the morning with someone there makes life worth living, I need that contact so much without it life is shit.

Secret #2: Every time I hear that song, I punch something because it reminds me of you and I'm still angry with you for what you did. Then I punch something again because I'm angry with me for letting you have that kind of power and control over me still.

Secret #3: I'm happy you're a "grower" and not a "shower" because honey if it didn't get any bigger than that, I'd need a new fuck buddy.

Secret #4: Sometimes, I wear my wife's lacy thong panties instead of my boxer briefs. It makes me feel dirty and sexy. She doesn't know and the idea of her catching me is thrilling and scary. What a sexy little rush I get!

Secret #5: I found all of my old Backstreet Boys CD's from when I was a kid in a box hidden away in the back of my closet while cleaning. I rescued them from their box and am totally jamming them on a regular basis again.

Secret #6: I slept with your wife. The morning of the wedding. In your bed. That's for fucking my college girlfriend behind my back for 6 months. Another FYI? She did it to get back at you for getting rid of her cat. She knows Snuggles didn't run away.

Secret #7: I got really, really high once and was having a few beers and thought putting a pet hamster in the microwave to cook it was a good idea. Luckily after about 10 seconds I realized it was a bad idea. I still kind of wonder what would have happened if I had let it go the full 15 minutes I had it set for.

Secret #8: It's so cliche but I fell in love with my best female friend. I tried to tell her one night and she told me to stop, she didn't feel that way and didn't want to hear me say the words. I was crushed. And yet she keeps dating assholes who just use her for sex for a few weeks and then move on.

Secret #9: Red lipstick is such a turn on for me.

Secret #10: If I ever got the chance, I'd fuck you in a heartbeat. I know I shouldn't because you're married but I would. I'd do it while your wife was downstairs cooking dinner and then sneak out via the balcony from your bedroom.

Secret #11: I killed your goldfish.

Secret #12: I am now in my 30's. I've had one sexual partner and two "girlfriends" in my life (and both cheated on me). The first when I was 16 lasted for 2 weeks, before she brought some other guy she was seeing over and wanted to have a "kissing contest" (effectively ending my affection for her). The second was when I was 18 and she was 15. Probably should have known better, but it was long distance, and a friend of mine introduced me to her. It lasted for 4 months before she told me on her birthday that she was seeing another guy and it wouldn't leave room for us. My one and only voyage into sex happened last year after I turned 30.

People don't know exactly how alone I feel most of the time, especially after seeing most of my friends disappear into relationships and suddenly run out of time for anyone else.

It's hard for me to meet girls and keep myself out of the retarded area known as the "friend zone". I'm a nice guy, ladies. . . Get over it and yourselves. Just because a guy is aloof and rude-ish, doesn't mean he's going to make a good man for you, and just because I'm nice, it doesn't mean that I'm not going to be able to do anything that jerk can do for you.

Tired of men and women elevating the stupid parts of life above the important ones. Sadly, it will probably never change.


Secret #13: I ate the last of your cereal. I don't know how you eat Grape Nuts, that shit is NASTY. I did get satisfaction out of knowing that when you woke up, you'd get no Grape Nuts.


I NEED SOME SECRETS for my Saturday posts. :D If you want to submit a secret for me to use next weekend (COME ON, DON'T BE SHY! :D) then just e-mail it to me: amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Or leave it as a comment here anonymously if you want to do it that way and I'll copy it and use it for next weekend's Secrets post. ;)

Happy Saturday!

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I could not kiss, just regress...

Thanks to everyone that commented on this post. I appreciate the comments and the couple e-mails I got in response to it. I don't appreciate the negative comments that are full of name calling and insults. If you left those, they didn't get posted, obviously. I don't mind people disagreeing with me. Not one bit. However, calling me a bitch and telling me I have my head stuck up a camel's ass along with a sleuth of other random and giggle inducing insults? Not going to publish that shit. Disagree with me all you want but articulate your point without being insulting and rude.

I NEED SOME SECRETS for my Saturday posts. :D If you want to submit a secret for me to use next weekend (COME ON, DON'T BE SHY! :D) then just e-mail it to me: amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Or leave it as a comment here anonymously if you want to do it that way and I'll copy it and use it for next weekend's Secrets post. ;)



I posted that picture on my Tumblr yesterday after I saw it posted on Laken's Tumblr. I love rainbows and with the angle of the picture and the road covered with stuff fresh after some rain? It just looks beautiful to me.

I started reading "Alice In Wonderland" again a few days ago. I haven't read that book in years but decided I wanted to re-read it. It's still one of my favorites. I love that I haven't read it in so long but still remember most of it. Though, some bits I forgot so it's nice when I get to a part I don't remember. I've also been reading Edgar Allen Poe again here lately. I think it's been a good 6 months since I picked up a poetry book and read. I always feel like drawing after I read Poe. Not sure why. It just inspires me creatively in an odd way. :D

I tweeted this yesterday: "People almost always react funny when I say I don't particularly like bacon. I'm not a pork person. I don't like the meat Babe has to offer." I immediately got some joking tweets about people not being able to like me, love me or be online buddies with me any longer because I'm not a big fan of bacon. I got one tweet from someone who could relate. Then two more from people who don't eat any meat. I never quite get what the big deal about not liking bacon is. When I was younger, I LOVED it. I stopped liking it around the time I started working a job as a teenager where I worked around bacon and smelled it ALL THE TIME. After smelling it and seeing it so much, I didn't like it as much and only ate it on burgers. Then, I went from working around it and smelling it to actually getting to cook the bacon once I was working the opening shift. More than a pound of it. 6 mornings a week. I already didn't like it but that? Totally put me off of it. I just amuses me (and admittedly baffles a little bit, too) how people react to me not liking bacon. Like it's some sort of mortal crime or something. I could say I dislike sausage (which I do, seriously, not a pork person) and it doesn't get near the reaction not liking the All Mighty Bacon gets. People are crazy about bacon. *nods*

Musical Monday video for today? "Glycerine" by Bush. They have been one of my favorite bands since I was 14 and first heard one of their songs on the radio. I really enjoy their songs. I like and relate to a lot of what their songs are about. Also? I LOVE Gavin Rossdale's beautiful voice. *swoon*

Happy Monday!

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Saturday Secrets #7

Saturday Secrets #7

If you want to submit a secret for me to use next weekend (COME ON, DON'T BE SHY! :D) then just e-mail it to me: amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Or leave it as a comment here anonymously if you want to do it that way and I'll copy it and use it for next weekend's Secrets post. ;)

Secret #1: When we have sex, I fantasize about Major League Baseball players I want to fuck most of the time.

Secret #2: I'm not really a lesbian. I say I am because I don't have enough self-confidence to get to know hot guys any other way.

Secret #3: My friend's dad is a doctor and we found out how to make a cast and made a crappy make shift one. I didn't break my arm. I just wanted a cast to see how many people would want to sign it and to see how many people would be concerned.

Secret #4: I turned my phone off for 7 days and didn't use any of my social networking websites. No one noticed. I hate my life.

Secret #5: I'm happily married but at times I find myself bored and calling dating phone lines just to find someone to talk to. It takes a while to weed through all the guys wanting phone sex or a hook up but I always find some other lonely soul who just wants to chat with another person.

Secret #6: I only wanted to date you because you looked like Joey on Friends. Thank you for turning me down because you're such an asshole I wouldn't have ever had a good time with you.

Secret #7: Some times, I go for 4 or 5 days without blogging or tweeting just to see if anyone online misses me.

Secret #8: I lied and told you I had to go out of town for business the weekend of your wedding. Truth was, I knew I couldn't watch you marry her without crying and causing a scene.

Secret #9: I miss you. I'm sorry I cheated. I wish you would forgive me so we could work things out. :(

Happy Saturday!

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Saturday Secrets #6

One of today's secrets is mine. I won't tell you which one but it is definitely not #8. I almost obsessively do the thing they don't do, lol. It's not #2 or #11 either because that's just pathetic. It's also not #1 because the Discovery channel rocks! I haven't seen it in a year, though. Last time I lived somewhere and had cable was early July. Bummer because I hate most of what comes on regular TV. Thank goodness there's music. :D Anyway, I'll stop narrowing it down now.

The rest of the secrets are from awesome people who were kind enough to submit them to me. If you want to submit a secret for me to use next weekend (COME ON, DON'T BE SHY! :D) then just e-mail it to me: amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com. Or leave it as a comment here anonymously if you want to do it that way and I'll copy it and use it for next weekend's Secrets post. ;)

Saturday Secrets #6

Secret #1: I pretend to enjoy it but secretly I hate the discovery channel and all of those shows she watches. I only pretend to enjoy them because watching them with her makes her happy and her being happy is more important than whether I enjoy a boring show or not.

Secret #2: Good thing I'm an impeccable liar. I'd never have any interesting stories to tell otherwise.

Secret #3: I secretly want to see my wife as the center of attention for many well hung men. After receiving her fill and cum was oozing from all of her orifices, down her face and pooling on her bare skin, I would worship her body as I always do. I would kiss her all over, enjoying the texture of her soft skin, savoring the taste of her sweat mixed with the evidence of her ability to give pleasure. I would embrace her as I slid into her soaked gaping holes, tasting the salt on her tongue as we shared a deep intimate kiss.

I don't want this as a means to degrade or objectify her. I would want her to be in control and to do it simply because she loves and cannot get enough cock.


Secret #4: I still have the "movie" that we made together and sometimes masturbate while watching it.

Secret #5: My father is white and I'm half white but I'm closer with my black mother and her side of the family and also the majority of my friends are black as well. When I hear racist jokes against white people, I always laugh. I feel ashamed for finding them funny because it's part of who I am and I love my father but some of them are so funny.

Secret #6: The complete lack of accountability among people is disgusting. Everyone wants to BLAME BLAME BLAME someone else but NEVER stop and point their fingers toward their own actions.

Secret #7: I'm much more unhappy than I let on. I don't fake anything, I just don't show everything. People have noticed that I'm less like myself lately but I've held back a lot so that no one knows how truly bad I've gotten.

Secret #8: I almost never remember to wash my hands after I pee at home but I never forget when I'm out somewhere.

Secret #9: I think you could do much better than him.

Secret #10: I cried 6 different times yesterday. I'm crying too much lately and it scares me how upset and sad I've been lately. I don't want to slip back into depression but I'm unsure what to do to prevent it.

Secret #11: Half the "real life" stuff I post on my blog is greatly embellished or not even real. I do it for the attention. I get so many comments and I love the sympathy people so freely dole out. I want the attention and I get satisfaction out of crafting my stories in a way that make people react so emotionally. I secretly feel superior to all the people kissing my little white ass too!

Secret #12: When I'm uncomfortable, I fart a lot. Thankfully they're usually quiet!

Secret #13: I laugh at his funny stories but I usually think he's just lying to try and impress me.

Secret #14: I HATE YOUR BEARD! MOTHERFUCKING SHAVE ALREADY! THIS IS WHY YOU CAN'T PERFORM ORAL SEX ON ME! I HATE YOUR BEARD! SHAVE SHAVE SHAVE! Please?

Secret #15: When an ugly guy approaches me, I fake not being able to speak English to avoid having them flirt with me.

Happy Saturday!

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Saturday Secrets #5 & Thank You...

Thanks to everyone who commented on yesterday's drunk driving post. Thanks to everyone who retweeted the link and encouraged other people to read it. I know a few people said they would be posting about it on their blogs and a couple said they would be posting a link to it on their blogs. If you do either of those things, let me know so I can check out the post and tell you thank you. :)


Saturday Secrets #5

Secret #1: I am 42 and more obsessed with the Twilight series and movies than my 17 and 19 year old daughters are.

Secret #2: I miss being single now that we're in a serious relationship. If we broke up, I'd miss being in a relationship. I'm always stuck on "the grass is always greener..." when it comes to dating.

Secret #3: I check through the 'missed connections' posting on Craig's List once every few days, just to see if anybody noticed me and thought I was sexy. Hasn't happened yet, and probably never will, but I keep checking...

Secret #4: Since you left me, I've used your email to sign you up for 30+ newsletters and random offers. I use your real cell phone number in all the info too but a fake address. Enjoy your spam and unwanted phone calls, asshole!

Secret #5: I love you because I feel like less of a freak when I'm with you.

Secret #6: I said I was queefing in the bathroom afterward and that was what all the noise was. That was a lie. The Mexican food from earlier was killing my ass.

Secret #7: My girlfriend and I have no problem doing things in the bathroom at the same time. Watching her insert a tampon always turns me on a little bit.

Secret #8: I quit sex blogging because the negativity of so many of the women made it not fun for me anymore. Blogging was only part of it for me. The community was the bigger part that I enjoyed. I quit because so many women in sex blogging are petty, catty, snide, mean, bitches. Grow up, ladies. I blog about crafts and similar hobbies now. Love it and found a community full of women who can agree and disagree without being petty, insecure and snide.

Secret #9: I'm a heterosexual male and I love glitter. Glitter in my hair, glitter on my face, glitter on my arms. I love things that have glitter on them too. GLITTER FTW!


If you want to submit a secret, send it to me at amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com or submit it through anonymous comment here on the blog.

Happy Saturday!

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Saturday Secrets #4

Saturday Secrets #4

If you want to submit something, email it to me (amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com) or leave your secret anonymously in the comments. I have moderation on so I can copy your secret to be posted and the comment will never show up. None of these are my secrets because well, I don't have anything I want to fess up to this week, lol. I did get a lot of people that submitted plenty for me to use today, though. Thanks to everyone that submitted a secret to be posted here today!

Secret #1: My step-father masturbates in his office late at night. I can see into his office from the backyard and I like to creep out there and watch him jerk off.

Secret #2: I cry myself to sleep every night. Not because I miss you. Because I miss the person I used to be before I changed for you. I'm not sure how to get her back.

Secret #3: I haven't cut in 2 years. I want to lately.

Secret #4: I LOVE TWILIGHT. I WON'T EVER ADMIT THIS TO ANYONE. EXCEPT EVERYONE READING THIS BUT NONE OF YOU KNOW WHO I AM! YAY TWILIGHT!!!

Secret #5: I steal one pair of clean panties from every girl I sleep with and have done so since I lost my virginity. I keep them in a box in the back of my closet and have 26 pairs of panties to date in there. My goal is 50 pairs and I only take one pair from each girl I sleep with. I feel smug when I look at that box not because it represents sex but because I take nice pairs and know those girls must have been annoyed wondering how they "lost" a pair of panties.

Secret #6: I feel semi sorry for all the sex bloggers who feel like they're special and important just because they have a lot of people following their blogs. Tons of those people only come for the smut so good for you for supplying people with a spank bank and then feeling superior about it. You're not famous just because you are well known in your little corner of the internet. Get a fucking life in the real world and stop spending so much time "living" online!!!

Secret #7: I love to masturbate but I have never had an orgasm from masturbating.

Secret #8: I love Lady GaGa but I won't ever admit it to anyone that asks.

Secret #9: I think you're a horrible human being but I can't stop watching you as you self destruct and spiral out of control. You are the definition of a train wreck and I cannot look away and I pity you for not realizing just how fucked up you are.

Secret #10: I have been sexually active regularly for 9 years and have NEVER had an orgasm. The longest I have gone without sex is 3 months. Nothing. I have seen doctors, read books, tried all I know to try and all I have been told to try and STILL NOTHING. I am afraid something is wrong with me that keeps me from getting to reach and experience an orgasm.

Secret #11: I masturbated with your toothbrush. Then I put it in my butthole. I put it back but didn't clean it.

Secret #12: If I could make you dead with my mind, I would do it. Just kidding I don't want you dead but if I could make you suffer with my mind the way I suffered for you, I would do it.

Secret #13: I hate that my mom is marrying you. She could do way way way WAY WAY better. Asshole. My real dad didn't deserve her and you don't deserve her either. I hate that she settles for less than she deserves because she keeps getting with men who treat her like crap.

Secret #14: I want to fuck my therapist. He's gay and it'll never happen but I fantasize about it during sessions and sometimes when I wank.

Secret #15: Sometimes, I dance around my room and pretend that I'm dancing with you and you're twirling me around a glamorous ballroom like Bell and Beast at the end of the Disney version of Beauty and the Beast.

Secret #16: I love blogging but I cannot stand most other bloggers and it makes me happy that not a lot of people read my blog or even "know" who I even am. Most are so self-centered and arrogant and think their lives are so fucking great or that they as a person as so great and it makes me laugh. I wonder how much of it is real and how much is just what they wish is real because they're too scared to live the life that they wish they lived. I think if some people had the full lives they claim to then they wouldn't have so much free time to constantly blog and talk on twitter about what they're doing all the time.

Secret #17: I cry every time I watch Dirty Dancing. I want something like that. Someone to believe in me. Someone to make me feel that I'm more than just that girl in the corner no one notices.

Secret #18: I slept with her then I slept with her sister later that night. Two weeks later, I got a blowjob from their mom. I want to fuck their older brother.

Secret #19: I prefer the fantasy world I have created in my mind because reality scares me.

Secret #20: I'm 26 and I'm still a virgin. I've had tons of chances but I'm so self-conscious about my small penis that I haven't ever taken up any offers of oral sex or intercourse.

Whew! That does it for the secrets today. If you submitted one last weekend or during the week at any time and don't see it here today, it'll be posted next weekend. I actually have a few more left but I decided to stop at 20 in case I don't get many submissions from now until then. Thanks again to everyone for submitting their secrets for me to use. ;)

And remember, if you want to submit a secret for me to use in a future post, email it to me (amorousrocker [at] gmail [dot] com) or leave your secret anonymously in the comments. :)

Have a good weekend, y'all!

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Saturday Secrets #3

If this doesn't auto-post, I blame the inter for failing. Or Blogger. Whatever.

Also, thanks to everyone who has submitted a secret to be posted here.
:) If you want to submit something, email it or leave your secret in
the comments.

Secret #1: I hate your beard. If I could shave it while you slept
without fear of harming you, I would do it.

Secret #2: I'm ashamed to admit this but sometimes when we fuck, I
fantasize about his hot older brother.

Secret #3: I hate the pot roast you make that you think is so delish.
It's DRY bitch!

Secret #4: It was me the melted jelly beans and gummy bears and poured
the mix into your shoes. I let her take the fall because she's such a
bitch.

Secret #5: The smell of deodorant (most anyway) totally fucking turns
me the fuck on. Mmm yeah.

Secret #6: Everytime I've ever "accidentally" grazed your dick too
hard with my teeth it happened on purpose because I was mad at you.

Secret #7: you could do much better than me but I'll never tell.

Secret #8: you're too smart for me. I pretend to follow what you're
saying as I google the words so I can find their definitions just so I
can understand what the hell you are saying.

Secret #9: Watching you eat turns me on.

Secret #10: I will never forgive you for Baylynne 425.

Secret #11: I'm overweight yet I look at fat people with so much
disgust. I can't stand fat people.

Secret #12: My socks, bra, panties and make-up all have to match and
be color coordinated with my outfits. You dressing like such a slob
makes me so mad.

Secret #13: I still cry every time I hear "our song" even though it
has been 3 years since you moved on.

Thanks again to everyone who submitted a secret for me to post! :)
Also, not one of these is a secret of mine this week but a few belong
to good blog buddies. ;)

Happy Saturday!

Saturday Secrets #2

Saturday Secrets time! If you don't know what this is, go check here. If you want to submit a secret that I'll anonymously post here next Saturday, email it to me (amorousrocker [at] gmail) or you can leave a comment here anonymously. Just say that it's for a Secrets post and I will copy what you leave and not publish the comment. (I have comment moderation on. Again.)

Saturday Secrets #2

This is strange to admit really, but I've always felt the want and desire to dominate a woman. the hole shebang whips chains cuffs her wearing rubber. it would make me happy but when I think about it I don't think the domination would go past the light bondage stage really. as I'm not that big into pain myself. it would just be nice to have the option to progress beyond said level. when it was done and dusted to I'd take her out and treat her like a princess buying her whatever her heart desired. and then take her home and help relax and stuff as I'd have to be in a relationship with said woman I've never mentioned this to any exes as I've always felt strange mentioning the subject. My deep dark desires are written now.


I met someone, and I want to leave him for her. That's right, a woman. Oh, the things I'd do to her... Things that would make him jealous because I never did care for oral with him.


I only liked you because you reminded me of him and I was still in love with him. Now, you're in love with my and I'm going to have to break your heart by ending things. I'm finally over him and the fact that you remind me so much of him bugs me.


I love rubbing it in your face that she left you for me. It's so petty and a part of me feels like a jackass for doing it because I know it's wrong but part of me loves it and loves how good it feels.


That night you had a party and we all got drunk and people slept everywhere? I got to sleep in the room next to your bedroom. I heard you and him fucking and it was kinda loud. I wanked off listening to him fuck you and pretended it was me fucking you while I wanked.


I'm about to graduate college with a Master's Degree. I have been at my current job for 3 years. It makes me great money and I love working there. It has nothing to do with the field I have been studying for 8 years. I don't want to leave my job. Not because I think I'll fail in my field of choice but because the only reason I got my Master's was to prove to my parents that I could because they didn't believe in me.


I idolize my older sister. She's despises me and says she wishes I were never born because she wanted to be an only child. I'm 16 and she is 24. I know she's a nasty person to me but to the rest of the world she's wonderful. I wish I could only see the negative crap in her so that I wouldn't look up to her. I want to hate her the way she hates me.


I love Harry Potter. I wish a world like that existed for real. I would live there.


He thinks I get so into phone sex. I do it for him but I'm only pretending. I'm usually watching a movie or reading a magazine when we're "having phone sex." I just can't get into it and don't enjoy masturbating but he gets off on it so I do it for him.


I am struggling so hard but no one knows. I cry so much but I don't do it in front of anyone and don't tell anyone how much I cry. I feel miserable most of the time but I don't tell anyone and I don't let it show. I'm only really me when I'm by myself. I'm going out and seeing people less and less because it's getting too hard to keep pretending. I know I need help but I can't afford to get it and I'm not brave enough either.


I got so bored during sex with you that I started thinking about what I needed to get done in Farmville and other Facebook games that I play.

Happy Saturday!

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