A place where I let some of the things running around my mind out to play. Sexuality, sports, baking, random nonsense, mental health and whatever else I feel compelled to write about.
Friday, April 30, 2010
We'll always have each other...
The Boyfriend rented The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus on Wednesday night. It has Heath Ledger, Colin Farrell, Jude Law and Johnny Depp. It looks weird, it is as weird as it looks and it was pretty good too. I'd totally watch it again. Then again, I love strange movies.
This is one of my favorite songs by Incubus.
I fucking love them. They're one of my absolute favorite bands. ♥
1) What's your favorite thing in your bedroom?
The bed!
2) Do you own a paintball gun?
I wish! I used to but don't anymore. Bummer.
3) When is your birthday?
June 15th! :D
4) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
OJ or V8 Berry Fusion.
5) Are you able to successfully do a proper push up?
Indeed!
6) Name 3 things you purchased for yourself in the last few days?
Nothing. I'm broke. And I mean it when I say it, lol.
7) Do you own any slippers/house shoes?
Nope.
8) When did you last get some form of exercise?
Yesterday. Did various exercises with some weights, some stomach crunches and then did 13 miles on the exercise bike.
9) What does good with tomato juice?
Someone who isn't me to drink it.
10) Are you probably able to do the Waltz?
Maybe, lol. I'd be a little rusty but I think I remember how.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
You know what really grinds my gears?
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I almost always do posts on things I like. Favorite things, things I love, things that make me happy, etc. So today, I'm going the opposite road. I won't list everything that I dislike, I might want to post this again with different things one day when I have nothing else I want to bore y'all with, lol. So here are some of the things that irk me...
The smell of freshly cut grass. It's not a terrible smell and I do love a nicely maintained lawn looks. I hate that smell. A few seconds of that and my eyes will water, my throat will itch and I'll be sneezing my head off for hours to come.
Playing soccer. Zzzzz. I have a few friends who love to play. I've tried. I just can't get into it. I'm alright watching it though if it's a good game going on. If it's not a good game? Zzzzz.
Craving something for the longest time, finally getting it and then it not being good at all. Granted, this doesn't happen very often. Usually when I'm craving something and I get it, I'm all "OhFuckingHellYesThisIsAmazingOhYeaaaaaah" but once in a while, it happens.
Songs that repeat the same thing over and over again. It drives me nuts. Which is why I can't stand most of the catchy pop crap that comes on the radio. I don't care how well a person can sing, if their songs are catchy repetitious crap? Forget about it.
People who hate things vehemently.... for no reason. Seriously, this is so annoying. I hate when someone passionately hates or dislikes something but has no argument or reasons at all why they hate it. "It rubs me the wrong way because I find it annoying" is better than saying, "I dunno, I just hate it so rah rah rah blah blah blah."
Broccoli. I've tried to eat it many times in so many different set ups. I just can't do it. The smell of cooked broccoli by itself makes me want to gag.
Dirty hardwood (or tile, stone, any other hard surface) floors. I like to walk around indoors without shoes or socks on. I don't like having junk on the bottom of my feet, it's gross and it drives me nuts. I also don't like walking around in socks and getting my socks all gunked up. Clean floors, ftw!
People who thrive on drama. (Especially the people who claim to hate drama but are always in it or starting it.) I DON'T like drama. My life has very little drama in it. I don't hang out with people get into a lot of drama or start a lot of drama. It's inevitable to avoid it 100% but I don't engage in people's petty bullshit, life is too short for that bullshit.
People who think their opinion/point of view/etc are the ONLY one. Especially if they're someone like that that thinks they're open-minded to a lot of different views but really aren't. You cannot argue with someone like that because it doesn't matter what you say, you're wrong. I also can't stand someone who "listens to your opinion" and then tries to subtly point out why you're wrong.
When a bird flies into the windshield while I'm driving. A few birds have died that way. It freaks me out having something unexpected hit the windshield. Driving along and all of the sudden, a bird swoops down at the wrong moment, smacks into the windshield, bounces up over the top of the car and hits the road behind me. Sad. Also, freaks me the fuck out to have a bird suddenly smack into the windshield while I'm driving.
Kiwi. Just kidding. Kiwi is good. Yum.
Come on, I had to end on a good note, lol.
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010
The Silver Screen & The TV Screen...
The post and all the details are below this one. Check it out. Thanks
to everyone that has entered so far! ;)
Anyway......
I don't get to see a lot of movies in the theater because that stuff
is expensive & I can't really afford to go to movies. I also don't
much care for crowded theaters anyway.
I am a fan of RedBox though. I can see a lot of movies from there for
what it costs to see one in the theater.
I do get curious about the stuff in theaters. I received some movie
passes recently and have no clue what to see. So, if you've seen
anything that's currently out, tell me about it! How was it? I always
like hearing people's opinions on movies. Unless you're a film critic,
then, not so much.
Also, what are some good movies you've watched at home lately? I don't
like romantic comedy. I don't like romance movies at all. If it's
considered a "chick flick" then I generally won't care to see it. I
prefer movies with explosions. Comedy that doesn't involve an entire
plot of dating and relationship plots that are cheesy. Suspense flicks
that will have my brain working trying to figure what's what as the
movie unfolds. I like blood and gore movies too but I'm picky, lol.
So, seen anything good lately?
Monday, April 26, 2010
My first sex toy giveaway!
So what do I have? The BNaughty Bullet Vibe!
So, how do you enter to get your chance to win this?
Easy! I thought up a ton of different things I could do that would be fun or challenging but in the end, I decided to keep it simple.
All you have to do to enter is leave a comment on this blog post and tell me about your favorite sex toy. Tell me what you love about it and why it's your favorite. You don't need to go into a long story about your favorite experience with said toy, just tell me WHY it's your favorite. If you don't have a favorite or have never used a toy at all, then tell me why you want to win the BNaughty.
You want a second entry? Tweet about the contest. Just copy the following text EXACTLY as you see it here and then tweet it on Twitter. If you do that, make sure you let me know you've done it. Don't follow me? Well, you need to, lol. ;) FYI, if your updates are locked and I DON'T follow you, I won't be able to see the tweet to know you did. So, if you tweet about the contest. Let me know. ;)
"RT @AshlyStar's doing her first sex toy giveaway! Details here: http://bit.ly/9Gnbu0 Please RT!"
If you don't have Twitter and want to get a second entry, you can easily post about the contest on your own blog if you want and that can count as a second entry. Just make sure you link back to this blog and send me the link so I'll know.
The contest ends on Friday! So you have until April 30th to enter to try and win this thing. You have to be willing to provide a mailing address so the toy can be sent to you. It doesn't cost anything and you won't have to pay any shipping. Have fun! =)
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Friday, April 23, 2010
On substance abuse.
(440): I totally agree. all sexting is on hold till after the games over.
(248): Playoffs. This shit is serious.
That is probably the most awesome thing I've ever seen on Texts From Last Night. It's so awesome that even though I already posted it on my Tumblr page, I had to post it here too. Of course, I'm biased in my reasoning for finding that to be the most awesome thing ever. Seriously, I can only read so many texts about people laughing about how awesome doing weed and coke are or how they cleverly hid their drugs. I don't find those things amusing, generally. I guess I don't see the humor in it anymore. Some people use for recreation. Granted, I didn't use in a recreational once in a while type of way. I used in a I've smoked weed 7 times tonight and also drank and taken some pills kind of way or a I've done several lines of coke and now I'm going to smoke a blunt kind of way. I used as an escape. It makes me sad seeing all those tweets about drugs because it makes me wonder if they're doing it to have fun and relax a little or doing it to escape. And really, doing it for fun and recreation isn't much better.
One of my
I know why he uses and he does it to escape from everything that bothers him. To feel better. To make life seem better. He admits that's why he uses. I wish he'd stop. The last time he called me was recent. He wanted to say hi, tell me he missed me and see how I was doing. We talked a bit and then I asked him if he was still clean because three months ago when I heard from him last, he had been. He said he only stayed clean a month. I bitched at him, hard. He listened to it all and then told me he always appreciated how honest I was and how lucky he felt to have me. We talked a bit more. Then, he asked me if I was still friends with such and such because he wanted to get an eight ball for him and some people to get fucked up on. I told him I didn't hang out or even talk to coke dealer anymore and didn't talk to any other drug dealers. It took me a while but I let go of all my relationships that involved people who used drugs daily or sold them. It wasn't good for me to be around that because at the time, I was incredibly tempted to jump back into it just to have that escape from reality.
My friend and I talked for a while longer. He told me he was looking for a job again after getting fired from a restaurant he was waiting tables at. Again. He got fired from the last one for doing coke in the bathroom during a shift. He got fired at this one because he got caught buying while at work. I laughed but not because anything was funny. He didn't laugh because he knew I wasn't amused. He's so smart and so good at so many things. It's disappointing but not as much as it used to be. I didn't bitch at him again after he told me that. He asked me why I wasn't yelling at him. I told him it would be wasting my breath because he wouldn't listen anyway. He didn't say anything for a full minute. Then he asked if I was giving up on him too. I didn't say anything for a while. When I did, I told him he made it really hard to care about him when he so clearly didn't care about anyone or anything, including himself. I told him I understood now how hard it must have been for the sober friends I had had at the time when I was really into drugs. I told him I understood why some of them said to hell with me. I understood how hard it was to care about a self-destructive person, because it's so hard and you don't get much (if anything) out of it. You get a lot of frustration and heartache out of it, that's for sure. I told him I wish that someone would have stepped in and helped me sooner because in the end, I helped myself because I was afraid I'd die if I didn't stop. Which is no one's fault. I honestly don't think other people in my life knew how much I used so they probably didn't think it was bad enough to step in. I also think most of them thought I was only smoking weed, which wasn't the case. So I don't have any resentment towards any one for not stepping in and shaking me by the shoulders because I don't think anyone knew except for the people I partied with. And they obviously wouldn't have said anything because most of them used as much if not more than I did.
I asked him if he realized how lucky he was to have not just one but several people trying to help him. He didn't say anything and then started crying. I didn't say anything and he said he was sorry once he was done crying. I asked for what. He said for everything. I asked him to define everything. And he did. And started crying again, speaking and apologizing through soft sobs. I told him if he ever wanted help getting clean, to please call me because he has to want it. You can't help anyone who doesn't want help or realize they need it. He made me promise I'd answer when that day came. I made him promise that day would come. We hung up after making our promises and I felt empty because I don't think that day will ever come.
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Thursday, April 22, 2010
Slut!

But if you do want something totally free
Playoff hockey is so fucking awesome. What's not awesome? People who don't watch all season and then watch during playoffs and think they know everything. "Oh yeah well Detroit rocks so of course they're going to win! They always play well and had a great regular season to keep rolling into the playoffs with. So it's obvious they're going to get the Stanley again this year like last year." Really? FYI, they had a mostly shitty season due to injuries and it looked quite shaky and debatable if they would even make playoffs this year. Once they got healthy, they were doing better and fought their way back up into a playoff spot. Also, they didn't win the Stanley last year. But you know, if you didn't watch all season (or the end of last the playoffs last year)... please don't act like you did and don't try to argue with people about certain things. Yeah, that quote was a real argument, too. They also admitted defeat once they hit Google and saw I wasn't the one talking out my ass.
Last thing... Do any of you know any good Tumblr's to follow that don't have anything to do with sex, erotica, fetish and things of that nature? I try to find new stuff to follow and can't come up with much since most of the bloggers I know that also have a Tumblr generally post things of a sexual nature in one form or another. Which is cool, I just want to find some good pictures of pretty much anything that aren't sex related. I did already try the search Tumblr option. I entered in keywords and I found lots of cool pictures but once I visited the profiles they belonged to... well, the good content was few and far between. I don't spend a lot of time on Tumblr anyway (my own page gets neglected, lol) but you know, if you want to recommend someone for me to follow, I'd appreciate it. ;)
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