So sleepy.

I am so damn tired. I love to work. My boyfriend thinks I work too much. I love work because I feel like I am productive. It also keeps my mind busy. I might get stressed and beyond annoyed with my idiotic co-workers but being at work, I feel sane. I'm doing something normal. I'm usually so busy making three drinks here, four drinks there, cleaning this, cleaning that, filling that container up and this and that. I don't have time to think about more than what I am physically doing at the time. Slow periods, it's time to get things clean and make sure I have everything I need. Wash dishes, stock things up, wipe this down, wipe that down. Get ready to go again during the next super busy period.

Then I have co-workers who don't annoy the shit out of me. There are only a small few I work with that I like but I don't often get close to co-workers. Between all the work, there is the casual banter between me and my co-workers. It keeps my crazy mind very occupied.

If I have a mood swing while I'm working, I focus everything on what I'm physically doing. Like Thursday night, I began feeling horribly sad a couple hours into my shift. I keep my mind focused by talking myself through the motions of what I'm doing in my head as I'm doing them. The last thing I want to do is start crying in front of a bunch of people I hardly know, lol. After about two hours, I felt better and could relax a little.

Also, staying busy helps the time go by faster. Not much sucks more than the hours at work dragging on forever. ;) I can't stand people who stand around and do nothing. It drives me crazy. I don't mind the ones who do it here and there for a breather. It's the ones who stand around flapping their jaws and doing as little as possible that I want to punch in the face. =D

Now... since I'm insanely tired and my mind refuses to think of much else... enjoy some random questions. Thank you Myspace, for all your random quizzes and surveys. =) Lol.


What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Water or Dr Pepper.


Are you different now than you were six months ago?
Only in ways that I notice. I don't think anyone ever notices the tiny things I change.


When/where was the last photograph you took?
Sitting on my bed. =)


What do you think of guys that wear eyeliner?
Some guys, it looks damn good on. Most guys, not so much.


How many hours did you sleep last night? Why?
Only a few. I haven't been sleeping much lately. Which sucks because working a job where you're on your feet and moving at a quick pace most of your shift is tiring. Doing it on little to no sleep just makes it worse, lol.


Who was the last person to whom you spoke on the phone for over an hour?
My boyfriend. I miss that dork something bad.


Where did you last wear sunglasses?
Thursday on the drive to work.


What does your last text in your inbox say?
I am not checking that. It was either from my boyfriend or my friend Fangs. I can't remember which of them texted me last.


Is there anyone you trust who you shouldn’t?
No fucking way. I don't trust easily at all. It takes a long time for someone to earn trust from me.


Do you think you would make a good lawyer?
Actually, I do. I just don't have the desire to do that though I used to want to.


What are you wearing right now and why?
Super Mario boxers and an oversize black t-shirt... because that's what I sleep in when I'm unable to sleep in less.


Are you a forgiving person?
It depends on the situation and the person.


Do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?
No. Earlier at work I did though. Aye!


Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?
Yes. I do that often.


Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?
Plenty of people. I'm very blunt and speak my mind freely. That doesn't go over well with a lot of people.


Are you taller than your mom?
Yes, a couple inches taller.


Do you think you are a good person?
Not always. I try.


Ever had a near death experience?
Yes. I almost drowned in a lake. I've had a gun held to the back of my head while another was pointed at me from the side. I've been ran over by a car. I almost drowned again but in the ocean that time.


When is the last time you cried really hard?
A few nights ago while on the phone with my boyfriend. I just started crying and then started crying really hard. Then I'd stop for a few minutes and then I'd be sobbing again. Stop. Sob. Stop. It sucked.


Is it hard leaving people behind?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no. It depends on who you're leaving behind and why.


Have you ever seen someone you knew out in public and purposely avoided running in to them?
Yes. I don't like everyone I know. I also don't like some of the people who like me. Which is confusing in a way because I don't understand how those people still like me even though I don't like them. Especially the ones I'm not particularly nice to. Puzzling.


Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice, that you can't even stand it?
That is horrible but yes, yes I do. I work with two girls with voices like that actually.


Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
I sometimes wish things hadn't gone so wrong with Cookerman. He was one of my best friends and at one point knew me better than most anyone. Sometimes, I wish things would have gone differently so we could still be friends but everything happens the way it does for a reason. I don't know if he changed because of her or if he was always meant to become the dick he is now, but mostly I'm glad we're not friends anymore as I can't stand the materialistic, self-centered asshole he has become.


Who was the last girl you talked to?
My sister or my mom. Aside from family, a girl from work that is really cool. =)


How do you handle/let go of stress?
Too many ways. Most of them aren't very good but I do them anyway. I should find a more positive, less damaging way to handle being stressed. Maybe one day.


Do you wish you never dated someone you dated?
No. I learned something from every person I ever went out with.


Would you date someone if they weren’t really your type, but had the perfect body?
No. I'd eventually get bored of looking at them. Plus, I have to have someone with a good sense of humor who can carry a conversation. I love to talk a lot of the time. I need someone who shares common interests and all that jazz.


Which TV show(s) have you seen pretty much every episode of?
HOUSE. I have not seen pretty much every episode but I have seen EVERY episode, at least twice.

Have A Great
Weekend Y'all!!!